break the news

well..sort of want to explain tonight's event to you guys.. well.. my grandma *mum's mum* passed away, she died at midnight peacefully.. ya.. i like the word PEACEFULLY.. at least she was ill but she did die peacefully..

i shall not mentioned her more already, well this is my first time attending a wake.. it's tiring for my 3 realm.. PHYSICALLY, PSYCHO AND EMO..

well physically, i was asked to burn the offering.. hmm.. been one of her grandchildren.. hmm ought to pay her a respect lah.. yup.. so the christian thing were all put aside.. well this is my policy of life.. RESPECT EVERYONE REGARDLESS OF HIS RELIGION.. so.. hmm.. i was like burning the offering for around 1 hour, chatting with my cousin and the coffin was like 2 arm-length beside us.. hmm.. it's kind of weird.. coz what i saw in the tv really comes into reality..

before that, when my sisters and i were reached, we were asked to drop in the joss-sticks.. with the band playing the music.. really really felt like crying.. this whole day i have been holding my tears.. really really thought of burst out crying.. but i juz can't.. thinking of the grandma of mine.. lively, joyful last Chinese new year (it was like 2-3 months ago only).. and now really prove one thing.. life is really fragile.. and to really treasure the ones who is around you.. not untill.. :"(


pyscho barrier is the most difficult to attend on.. it's MENTALLY difficult.. and always it will lead to emotional.. so well.. it's really a hard battle to beat on.. but thinking my grandma can end her misery *(illness) and to be unite with God in Heaven did lighten my heart abit.. well.. my heart now are peaceful..

i am not sure i will cry tml or on sun, but definitely i have re-learn an impt lesson and it has proven today AGAIN.. treasure your lives, and the lives around you.

Take care guys, will update again..

TO BE CONTINUE..

Food Festa!

woohoo.. it's late at night and i juz finished my food marathon today.. so full.. yup.. i am really contented today, finally i get to eat and drink so much.. haha:) let me brief you some of the highlights:P

1.30pm: Jalan Kayu "CXXXX restaurant" selling pata, well was travelling with jy and kp after swim, we took a LRT from Farmway to Thanggam it's juz a 2 stop ride, and a short walk and BOOm .. we reach the famous well known street... we ordered..

• 3 plain Pata
• 1 BIG BOOM (actually it's a sugar pata.. lol)
• 3 TeH

total was $7.20, well the pata was 10 cents ex than usual but i should say the highlight is the Teh.. wow.. it's really amazing how strong the nice fragrance can it be.. it just makes you want to keep drinking keep drinking:)

3.30pm: this time i was at Starbucks with wanying doing DIY Easter Eggs Session.. we order the following..

• 1 Type of Coffee which is foreign to me (i only drink Ya-Kun.. )
• 2 plain Free Ice Water
• 1 Oreo CheeseCake (a well collaboration of cheese and oreo.. my fav OREO:))
  
• 1 Choco Cake (liquid choco running out of the cake that melts into your entire mouth..:P)
  
• 1 Cheese Bagel (well toast with the melting butter, a bite that will kills you..)
  

the total was around well, after 30% staff discount from wy.. and my $10 Starbucks vochur (given as appreciation for my constant morning prayer week last year), not ex lah. i actually spend $2.80 on the cheese corrisant only..the remaining is sponser by my sister..:).. we spent around 3 hours wrapping, drawing the eggs, well it all pays off:) (i shall blog tml about the response when everyone saw the eggs..:)

7pm: wy and i was like wandering around for dinner, and we finally decided to eat at Hotpot Culture at Marina, well we only pay $10.40 (with GST) each for the following of my portion of what i ate..

• Herbal soup based (refill once)
• Pork Slices with some seafood platter
• and lots of veges
• 2 BIG bowl of rice..
  

well, it's all worth the eating.. so much food, we took 2 hours chatting and eating.. so nice eating steamboat in this cold and cosy weather, it really warms your stomach up.. yummy, yummy.. now i am really prepared for the buffet next time..:)

10pm: arrived at Kovan CC to meet my sister and sister in law, we called for some drinks and watch a live band performance put up by an neighbourhood unknown band.. here is what we called..

• 1 glass of ice green tea
• 1 glass of ice lemon tea

actually, i pay $3 for the drinks and watch the awesome performance put up by the band, i should say it's really worth it lah, with the nice comfortable weather with the cosy lighting, even though it's outdoor, the songs and lovely melody still melts my hearts with a mixture of English and Mardarin Pop hits..

(i am not done yet:)

11pm: last stop, my 3rd sister came by and drove the 3 of us from Kovan CC to this dim sum restaurant near little india there called the "X chun" there for supper, i so miss this dim sum, i tell you.. it has been so long since i have eaten this awesome dim sum... this some of the food we ordered..

• 2 plates of chao siew buns
• 2 plates of carrot cake
• 2 plates of chao siew pastries
• 1 plate of red bean pastry
• 2 BIG bowls of century-egg porridge
• 1 plate of prawn roll
• 2 glass of HOT barley water
• 1 kettle of china hot tea

i should say, with the delicious & marvelous foods for only $34 (with takeaway food).. it's really ALL WELL ENDS WELL, a good supper really ends everything off and right now i am feeling really contented, all my stress is gone, all my worries is gone, good and great food really marks my day right and will set these next days right too.. really Thank God for giving me this opportunity and this healthy body to try all of this great food with my cash available and well, this really proves that God is good all the time and all the time God is good. Amen?

:P:)

Courage to admit and face the reality

well.. a very short one. as u noe that i am doing a Door to Door job on flyer distribution, today i did a strange thing with xy that is to deliver them into the mailbox.. end up the customers (provided the flyer) when checking and saw the mailbox with flyers..

i shld help xy sort neatly the flyers into the mailbox.. coz that's remaining of the flyers outside the mailbox,
well.. guess we really deserved it.. so many times we have tried to do it.. this time really get caught.. well.. we really deserved it..

punishment is only very simple: tml 12 blocks FREE flyer distribution only.. hope this can help cutting down on the loss and to improve on our boss de reputation bah..

one thing i learn to cope is mental stress.. just now during service really struggled for that.. can't really focus on singing.. i really keep crying.. keep thinking on how to solve.. how to help.. but i am really glad that i admit.. i admit all.. i didn't kept any secrets or lie.. i have been truthfully to myself.. to everyone.. it really needs to take a huge step of faith to step forward and admit the mistakes.. feared of the cons, been scolded.. but well.. i am in the house of God, and i am a Christian, and i dun want to keep dragging it le.. admitting it is the only way out.. no more lying is needed anymore..

also want to thank Darren's consulting.. it really helps.. that time i just feel like crying.. but i hold myself.. telling someone of my problems really helps to lighten my burden and my worries.. after hearing.. he really help me alot in advising on what to do, say that i did a great job in be honest, and this is part and partial of life.. this happens.. only that.. this is my first time that this happened to me..

9 more hours to my start of free labour.. i pray that everything will turn out fine.. will push myself to finish at least 15 blocks to cover as many blocks i can.. i noe that with God all things are possible.. i am doing all things to redeem myself.. i can do it. i admit on my mistake with bravery and move on. how about you?

it's so FOOL!sh (part 1)

1st Fool by someone: Eugene
his sms: Maybe this will be the last time i use this number to sms you... recently there are too much thing s happen.. I have undergo alot of pressure, and now i have finally thought about ir. i'm going off and leave Singapore.. air tickets already been bought by the time you receive this msg,i already inside the plane.dun worry for me as i ill take care myself..i'm going to beijing. just now i still consider whether to call u anot, but things come too sudden, so never discuss with u.. dun angry with me as i have no choice, (Hu Jing Tao) Say he dun want to work liao, ask me go china take over him, next time miss me watch news lah. Advanced april fool day!:P

my reply: (my first few expression of the first few lines are SHOCKED, serious!, somemore it's before 12am of the eve of the 1st April) (that;'s my reply after reading the whole sms..) take care of yourself and let's keep in touch using Facebook. China got right? Btw happy april's fool in advance

1st Prank for someone: Mass Delivery (In sequential order)
to: William, You Hock, Michelle, Wan Ying, Jonathan, Si Jia, Si Yun, Yun Ting, Darren, Eugene, Kwee Peng, Jian Yong, Zeng An, Hariyani, Say Haow, Yan Hao (16 ppl)
my sms: yo you there..? Free to chat with me on sms.. I need someone to chat.. Can you be the one? Sorry to disturb you if I have.. I'm really lonely recently.. Hai..

their replies: (mostly --> of course can, What happened?, need my help? how can i help?, will be there for you..

i want to highlight and show my special appreciation to the following..

Ms SiJia and SiYun are both together, so well, they are the first to spot that. SiJia still call me and ask me loh.. i fake for like 3mins then shout "Happy April's Fool" then they both stunned.. haha.. but quite spoiler, thought can play both of them, esp. siyun... haha.. blur blur de..:P

Mr Darren: You can call me or date me out ya i'm free whole day bro =) (Super touched when seeing this)

(To ensure everyone dun get angry and i dun get overboard...)
My instant reply to their instant reply is.. "No la.. Just... Hai... Feel like telling you.. Happy April's Fool! :)"

2nd Fool by someone: You Hock
His shocking reply was "not funny at all! i thought something serious happened! THIS JOKE IS SERIOUSLY NOT FUNNY AT ALL!"

(i was like emo for 1/2 hour thinking is my sms abit too far-fetched, then i apologised to him saying)
"erm oh i will repent then.. :( sorry. Apologise once again.. Hai.. Shouldn't do so big :( "

then he replied , "it's okay.. becoz it's my turn!! Happy April Fool's Day! =P " (Stunned again.. speechless..)

the rest was like simply ignored me, some commented "lol.. thanks ah; very entertaining; etcs etcs"

after that, there's quite alot of pranks going on for me.. but i didn't fallen into.. simply.. the msgs are too april's fool..haha.. thanks kweepeng, jianyong and victoria for trying so hard on me.. appreciate that:P

i should say i really enjoy fooling others lah, but i got benchmark my limits lah.. instant 5mins fooling.. dragging will make things worse.. haha.. this is my first time trying out, so i should say it's quite successfully for a beginner?.. what do you think? :)

conflicts make both party stronger in their relationships..

can't take it anymore, feel like letting all out here.. was so disappointed.. with her.. no sorry, no console, nothing.. she give me nothing but sadness, disappointment, and the doubting on our friendship.. i squeeze myself to say bye to her to conduct at least an one line conversation and she.. nearly ignored me, dun think she is tired... :"(

the sadness thing is not about fries, is about our ways of handling things diffnly.. guess we got to learn from each other, since no one is perfect and everyone of us has different characters and personalities..

i really hope she can talk to me, after all is me who is in angry mood not her, ...

nevertheless, hope this matter will be resting soon.. i dunno what will happen if one of us didn't do anything..let's hope nothing will happen.. or else.. well.. friends isn't forever right?! hope it isn't true for us then...

suan le. i guess i blame myself of that, i shouldn't exert my anger, i should keep it.. but given the situations where everyone forced you to ask you what happened and u can't escape from it.. makes things worst.. i am like in very hot smoke and u add some fire and makes things even worse..

the cycle trip isn't that as fun as i thought, i was like chase the fronts and to slow down for the backs.. there was like simply more than 1/2 hour where i was been thrown alone in the dark/dim light..out of no where.. no ppl around.. that fear isn't what u can describe.. making you feel really really alone and scared..

again, i really want to stress on letting this matter down.. i dun want later in future someone asked..
"eh. how come she is not around"
then i will be forced to answer..
"oh. our friendship has distant because of Mac Fries"

that will be so ironic, crazy and mad.. i dun want later in future i need to eat in other eateries becoz the moment i step in Mac.. i will recall that incident..

really pray that everything can be under control.. it's like everything has turned out to be so unpredictable

driving test in the morning sucks.. i was like trying so many attempts to log in to that freaking system and to no valid.. i called the officer and he questioned me and later tries to login to the same password and username i have log in .. == turns out.. can't login too.. then he told me to go 3 levels down to the administrative section to check with the clerks.. i rushed down and checked but the clerk said it's alright.. perfectly fine.. later i go up again.. running up.. sweating.. the officer came to me and see.. the login can't worked..

thank God he provided his login for me to conduct the trials telling me not to waste any time, just do the first trial and tell him if i am done with the first. this wasted me like 30mins.. then i rushed my way through to complete the first 50qns..in the end gotten 84% passed which means 7 wrong.. that' really scared me.. the officer later told me i can check my answer by clicking on the link "incorrect" to see what when wrong..

then after that he helped me with the 2nd attempt login.. and i passed it with only 2 wrongs.. when i looked at the clock it's like 5mins to 2pm.. then i quickly rushed with wy they all to the actual BTT room.. with God's grace, i managed to pass that.. all thanks to my 3 days in advance reading and copying of notes, this time i really spent quite an effort to complete my revision.. so i guess i proved to be what i am to be..

after that i spent a couple of hours doing nothing but to shop in NTUC aimlessly and to eat my favourite waffles of peanut butter flavour.. playing my hp games untill my brain hurts.. then she came in a rush.. originally want to show my pissed off but realised after all costllan is the planner, i should also respect him.. so well.. i kept it..if i cancel it last minute also disrespect him.. both ways also make everyone unhappy.. so nvm lah.. everyone happy jiu hao..:)