Emotional breakdown and a series of great headaches follows..

Emotional breakdown and a series of great headaches follows..

Tired. tired of been called gay.

been caught flirt. attending FIVE GALS AT the same time..

been popular isn't my fault. why must everyone picks on me. how i wish i can juz get out of everything and isolate myself from everyone. isn't it the best solution..

tired of been accused of nothing i have done before

tired of been accused of watching cyber sex and pornography

tired of been crowned as the sex master

tired of been said of rapping the gays...

tired.. of been accused of ALL those YELLOW stuff..

IT WAS NOT THE FIRST TIME.

IT WON'T BE THE LAST TIME.

IT CAN'T BE THE LAST TIME.

AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

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just can't i be.

the Jim that i used to be?

the cheemeng that most friends will noe.

the positive thinking attitude.

the good reputation and image

guess i really understand how Gabriel feels. felt sorry for him too..

not to neglect i have added salt to his wounds too..

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each and every sentences pierce through my heart like a sharp blade..

seeing my best friends saying.. and my good friends standing there laughing.. watching the good show.

well.. wat i can i say?

or i SHOULD say how i can react to stop?

no! i CAN'T

they just keep rubbing and rubbing..on the cut wounds that is going to recover..
causing more wounds and cuts.. more serious one..

all those making fun of my names. my surname.. my given name from my parents..

1st few times i will laugh...

next few times i can tolerant

the very last times i will denied

the last time i will....

i dunno what will i do..

i guess i underestimate myself.

underestimate my level of tolerance..

underestimate my heart..

overestimate my brain..

give me some time and i will cool down.

i..

i know..

i will NEED to cool down if not i will do SOMETHING silly again.

who knows? maybe next time round you will not see me again..

i will not be sitting/standing beside you anymore?

or i will just disappear from every single ones' world.

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to all other frens out there:
NOTICE: IF I SUDDENLY DIDN'T CONTACT YOU. PLEASE GIVE ME SOME TIME TO COOL DOWN. I MIGHT CANCEL ANY MEETING/ GATHERING WITHOUT WARNING.

NEXT TIME U SEE ME, I WILL BE BETTER. I WILL. DEFINITELY.

WITH GOD. I CAN OVERCOME EVERYTHING THRU HIM TO STRENGTHEN ME.]

guess i can ONLY pin ON to Him only. PRAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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