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was sort of disappointed, but well every organisation has its rules and regulation.

and we are just one of the chess, unfortunately to be play around.

well, i will continue to be played, and hopefully, not be kicked out of the game.

the truth is unbearable and sometimes un-acceptance, but well.. lived with it, and move on to the next destination, isn't what we called LIFE.

shall not talk about this issue anymore, hope i will not bring this up again.

God help me to recover from this hurt, can you? it's so much emotinally to be bear with..

Thank you in advance and i hope for a speedy recovery/healing to take place.. if not..

i might just exit this game and wandered around outside. take care every1..

icreate exhibts and reflection

this morning, i woke up at 6.10am as planned, and to travel to SMU for the icreate exhibits..
well , icreate is a somesort of convention, called the "International Conference on Accesible Tourism", specially for the people with impaired disability, and my role is to originally to be the ushers, i heard from my fren that it will be very tiring ushering the special ppl, but i just told myself to treat them as normal ppl and give the equal respect but with greater carefulness so as to make them feel more welcome and happy.

it's around 5mins passed the meeting time when i arrived at the meeting place, well i am the first! Hooray! the rest came abit later than me, and i was SO shocked that they are all juniors /\_/\|| so me, as the senior just felt totally weird, thank God, later huibin came, and at least i have some one to chat with.. haha.. this really makes things easy.. :) by 15mins time, we managed to gather and set off to the exhibits for a briefing.
The briefing started abit later than expected guess the organiser was abit busy bah, so i juz wonder around the waiting area and looking aimlessly at the noticeboards etcs

by 0825 we were been told to gathered in the auditorium to receive our duties.. i was been asked to do the carry of the machine together with huibin and another junior, the organiser, Mr Ng, was seems like a friendly person to me, smiling and encouraging us, he told me to be the leader of the group to manage the flow of the event.. wah.. abit of responsibility leh, thought i can slack abit.. but okay lah.. not much, juz organising my 2 guys and to ask them to carry the 50kg machine and move up and down the stairs, and out of the auditorium to the stairs..

before that we were been asked to carry out the furnitures to the main stage, seems heavy, but we managed to carry all out.. :) but then coz of that, my arms muscles are already tired liao, this makes the carrying of machine even more tedious..

around 0940, the opening cermony starts with the chairman of the "Disabled People's Association" introducing the activities with a welcome speech, my job is very simple, just wait for the 2nd spokeperson (Mr Hideto Kijima Toyonaka")'s wheelchair to be inside the lever and to operate the machine to allow the platform to be inline with the stage ground before he can leave his self out of the machine and proceed straight to the stage front for the speech

with that, Mr Kijima can present with the least effort, a great innovative design machine really solves this kind of crucial problems..well, Mr Kijima is an amazing person, since 20 years ago, he has been living with his wheel-chairs coz of a backbone problem/injury that forces him to be a wheel-chair bound person.

thinking of his disability, Mr Kijima wants to do something different from others, some might choose to give up their lives, some might feel miserable, but Mr Kijima just live his life to the fullest potential he has, fullest maximum that he can overcome and achieve not only his goals but of his dream of travelling around 99 COUNTRIES IN THE WORLD IN 20 YEARS only...

i really admired him alot, given the difficult of mobile-ing, and yet he managed to travel so many countries and over come so many obstacles mentioned in the slides itself... i rmb some memorable ones..

• Riding a camel in the desert
• Climb up the mountain by the help of the water buffalos
• Climb up the hill with the help of the guys and a cloth, like a pivot and the lever theory.. AMAZING
• Bungee jumping
• Sky diving, (but at the last moment been cancelled due to some technical errors, but he did overcome his fears to give it a try
• Hand- driving around the town (but nearly coz an accident resulting in lots of inside humours, can share with you when you asked me.. very funny and lame..:))

His traveling experiences makes me wonder, even him can travel so many countries, what about me? as a well-function teenager do? what is the least i can do? how can i make the world into a better place? How can i fulfill my dream also to travel to the countries around the world? really, it makes wonder and really did boost up my courage and tempting me to travel again.. really envious him alot! :P

his +ve thinking attitude & his cheerful character really motivates me alot..and his presentation was way to entertaining, and he just dun have any stage fright, and he is just there in front of you talking to you about his memorable experiences, and with some laughers and jokes.. his laughers and smiles from the slides and photos are all very real and you can see that he is really REALLY happy to be who he is, enjoy what he is doing and not to feel disgrace about his disability and to live his life with these 3 goals (i'm trying my best to rmb):

• Fulfill your dream no matter what difficult it is
• Maintain a cheerful and +ve attitude in handling things
• SMILEZ! :)
  

well isn't travel great? and isn't travel with more onbound access of the handicapped facilities better for the travellers with disability. we have not really done enuf, Let's make the world a better place and really, really, plays a part in helping the need and to heal a hurt! Shall we?! :)

finally watched this movie completely..

"A drama (movie) about friendship that spans ages, this is based on a true story which chronicles the life of a man who died at the age of 23 after an illness that started with the partial collapse of his cranial bone, and a subsequent battle with seven types of incurable diseases. "

interesting plot right? last year i was doing some yahoo random search, and found out this movie "Yuuki", it's a jap movie portraying the real life true story of a patient who suffers from this very un-cured rare diseases and how he overcome the fear of his illness and even managed to encourage his friends around him to be motivated about their own lives, very meaningful.

tonight just managed to finish the left few impt parts of the movie coz the last time i watched, it's incompleted. so well, i thought of popping by and GREAT, it's the ending.. expected ending, but unexpected motivational messages sent across..

Given his unbearable situation, his courage to face fear did warm my heart, and really, did encourage me alot, no matter is the previous time watching, or just now, it is really amazing how the storyline can be stuck into my mind untill now, i still will be able to rmb most of the storylines..

this movie is really highly recommended to watch.
you can watch it at http://www.mysoju.com/yuuki/ for free. :)


the main actor acting as the patient: Kamenashi Kazuya
Acting: Excellent

Below are Some of the movie screenshots.. ENJOY! :)



Courtesy to crunchyroll:) All rights reserved to crunchyroll :)

awesome NIGHT!

tonight i really have an awesome night..
was really tired after the cremation, reached home around 5pm already + bathe = manage to sleep around 1 hr

then i pull myself up for the dinner..

i am glad i didn't cancel that.. coz it really ends up well..

after a series of consideration, xy, pris and i decided to eat on tian tian steamboat.. we talk alot and eat alot end up we talked like for the whole 2 hour plus, the food were so-so, but i really love eating and eating with the ones i care about.. i really can put myself down, eat without guard, just eat without manners.. shiok sia..:)

we order our bill around 10+ then we decided to walk to Singapore river for a chat..

then we bought some sparkling wine to drink..i choose the orange since i tried the peach before..

i admit that i am drunk when i am suddenly so high.. and very dreamy.. lol..

and xy and i was like talking nonsense.. haha.. we were having a very fun time shooting photos and chatting.. jon and prisc cool us down..

and we depart for the last bus nearly half past 12 midnight and when i reach home it was like nearly 0130..

(some of the nicer pictures, thanks to Jon got the camera-ing:))
xy and me with courtesy bear:)
xy and prisc with courtesy bear:)
xy, jon and prisc with courtesy bear:)

xy and prisc with their liquor

i like this pic the best, see the white thingy in the bottom left corner? that's me:)


jon and i holding the best frens' liquor
when 4 bottles of liquor unites!! :P
prisc, me and xy:)

thanks jon for the shooting and sending of them home, love you ye? :):P

move on, shall we?

move on, shall we?
well.. last day of the wake...came very fast.. i didn't slp much that night before, though i slp earlier.. was tossing around and thinking will i really cry that bad the next day.. so well.. i didn't really have a proper slp..

it's like 9am when we were been asked to wake up by my mum, we have our breakfast and was ready to set off.

we reached the wake at around 1030.. then we settle down after changing our shirts to a white plain tee..

My first tear came when i heard the symphonic band playing the first song.. Shi Shang Zhi You Ma Ma Hao.. wah..seeing the 3 uncles (husband's of my aunts and my mum), and wonder really how fortunate can my grandma be, seeing her children gotten married happily and .. well.. but i managed to hold back my tears and continue drinking my water..

the first CRY happened when we were asked to walk around the coffin as a group.. i was having thoughts all over my mind and i heard my 2nd aunt cried, i was really amazed at that, coz my 2nd aunt was really very strong and appear to be very optimistic.. and seeing her burst out crying and shouting did impact me alot.. then after that my another aunt cried.. my mum tears.. well.. i nearly cant controlled myself.. i told myself to cool down and relax.. and relax.. and it got better.. secretly.. i wiped off my tears..

then after that, the coffin was carried out from the wake around 12+, we then walked behind the coffin.. it is really heart-broken, your thoughts will went crazy.. and u doesn't raelly know what u are thinking about.. before that all of the children and grandchildren were asked to be bare-footed wearing only socks..

so it really hurt when walking on the concrete roads, somemore with the sun on top of us.. it really is a crazy move.. but i told myself.. For my grandma, for my grandma, this is really the least of what i can do.. this is really the bare minimum that i can be as a grandchildren.. somemore grandma has suffers so much hardships.. we were just walked and accompanied her for the last lap of journey.. that isn't much that we can ask for, isn't it?


fter a 10-15mins walked, we board the coach and set off to the cremation centre.. on our way, flashbacks of how grandma treated me and my cousin came across, it's really vivid.. and memorable.. those silly scolding.. lovely joking.. all have gone to pass.. thinking that this is IT.. the moment that i wished won't happen..

with a 20mins fast drive, we arrived at the centre and was asked to walk in and sit down to wait.

around 0120, the final praying starts, a rather short one, the priests in black prayed for like 5mins then we walked around the coffin for the last time in 3 rounds and the coffin was been pushed to the holding area..

all ALL (i repeat)..everyone of us ran to the holding area with the transparent screen covering up the room.. the aunts and my mum.. burst out crying non stops and i teared.. i really teared.. the last final moment when the coffin was been send up to the cremation machine.. my elder sister came and hugged me.. at that point of time.. i can't hold up my tears anymore, i burst out crying on her shoulder.. hold up the tears for so many so many nights.. i finally burst out crying.. for nearly 3mins..(then i heard a voice in my mind, MOVE ON, MOVE ON, but i just can't control anymore, i continue crying for the 3mins.. releasing out all my emotions out..)

then we were asked to proceed back to the holding area.. i controlled myself and stop the cry..then, my 2nd sister can't hold it anymore, she cried also.. even more serious.. my elder sis console her and my 3rd sister console my mum.. every aunts wipe their tears, some even can't walk properly.. we asked them to sit at the branches and let them have a rest before we proceed with the last pray.

i looked at grandma's tablet and sigh, and finally say out my last words in my heart, wishing her, pray for her, and to ask God to really take good care of her, she can finally re-unite with her husband...

after that, we took back the same coach and arrive back at the wake's area where we have our lunch past 2.. the food was terrific yummy.. with the fried chicken cutlet, fried fish, yummy vege and fresh steamed prawns.. marvellous.. after that we went on with the last prayer meet at the house that my grandma last lived and we depart and leave with peacefulness in our hearts.. finally a matter went on pretty in order..aren't they?