Face to Face with Darren Chen Shi Wei

Face to Face with Darren Chen Shi Wei
Woohoo.. guess what. i was so shocked to see Darren Tan (Chen Shi Wei) face to face at Wisma Atria. at first i was wondering is he really him. then i look from top to bottom from 1 glance then at that very moment when he has his eye contact with me. PARK!.. it was like i saw him then he saw me and WE BOTH KNOW WHAT WE SEEN. (he knew that someone saw him then the one is me..lol.. ) then i was totally speechless. then i dunno how to react then he walk away liao. hmm.. think given the 2nd chance i will stop him and make him autograph and take picture with me. lol..

well. basically he dress quite similar to his image on tv. that day he wore a white printed tee and a black/grey vest and a black pant/jean then with a pair of sneakers/pullover. hmm.. then well he didn't wear any sunglasses and he juz walked out from giordano if i've rmb correctly. lol.. so funny. hope we will meet again..lol

really a good pre x'mas surprise.. lol.. :)

To be a guitar - man = Guitarist

WHO WANTS TO BE A GUITARIST?
ME (@.@)

yup.. my guitar passion came back one fine day when i was asked to be the guitarist for my connect grp x'mas party, i was like, wow.. perform in front of 20 ppl at least.. hmm.. really need to practise hard liao..

i am those kind of ppl that will only be WORKING hard if the situation FORCES me to.. well ... that is the case.. i spend everyday touching my guitar.. right now, my hands still have the marking loh.. but no regrets..

it's really very very VERY cool and shuai to play guitar. so mesmorising, attractive. even i was so engrossed with my frens playing the guitar music. so well.. i really encourage you all out there to learn guitar. it's really a good way to demostrate your stress management. u can strum the guitar strings to destress, play ur lovely music to entertain yourself or those ppl around you.

hope one fine day, i will be able to perform on stage. wah.. STOP DAY DREAMING LIAO.. nono it's NIGHT dreaming..

[but i really really dream of performing on stage in a private room with my fans and my frens cheering me and the live band as back up. me as the guitarist and the lead singer singing songs that i composed myself..]

COOL! right... lol.. okay.. i will stop dreaming..:)

the truth hurts. i know

i can't take it anymore!.. i feel that it's better for me to say it here..the truth hurts, i know, cause now i have been literally "bleeding".. but i am glad that they pointed out to me, if not i won't even know i behave in such way.

quotes:
"Cm is more emo than you xxxxx i think u are better than him"
"sometimes i think that you are not serious, we got play, but a least we got some seriousness."

well.. yup. i admit i am emo and lame. always, i treat things very lightly, and always i am very sensitive especially to little things like the above.. hmm.. maybe i am not serious enough? i admit juz now i am exaggerating to the that topic, guess i should really choose the right time to be funny. i'm reflecting right now, thinking how i silly i am.

how crazy i am sometimes.. am i too much?.. did i add too much humourless acts into everyone's lives, like the cellgroup, my frens etcs.. causing discomfort to them.

think i shld really treat these 2 weeks of term break as a time to reflect on myself.

i have already set new year's resolution.

In the year 2009,
i aim to be less funny at the wrong times, and more serious on my work especially on my studies.

here is my resolution, what about yours?

juz a short one..hmm.. juz now while on my way with claudia from asia conference.. we saw a vehicle-human accident collide.. i was like.. wow.. the impact was so big that the bus 81 screen cracks.. the glass didn't scattered..juz it cracks alot..

i think the boy deserved it lah.. it's like the green man turning red liao.. he still dashed from the start.. i think the bus caption didn't see him... end up the boy kana bang on the bus.. the sound was like so loud.. "BANG".. then our ms claudia.. wants to go look look mah.. so we went to that road junction from our bus sttop to see what happen.. well..

the guy was not as inguried as we think lah.. juz some blookd lost.. was he is quite in pain though.. still can mange to call home and complain to his mum the bus captain bang on him.. well.. i mean though he is like sec 1-2..still young but doesn't mean he can say that mah.. quite pissed off by him lah..

i juz hope he will be alright then.. and he WILL learn his mistakes.. arrr.. i will do my part to pray for him de.. hopefully.. this bang will turn him into a better and more obedient boy.. !! :)

packed day...

juz a short one.. my com now went bad to worst.. can't even see what i am typing now... it's like the colour input gone off liao.. changed to a weird colour.. it's blue now.. next time it will change to orange.. lol..

basically today i have very packed and tiring schedule.. like me tell u why...

0930 leave hse and travel to hougang swim complex
1030 started swimming with jy and kp
1200 end swim on the way home
0100 have lunch after bath..
0115 travel to cell grp
0145 reach pasir ris mrt control room.. picking up nicole and vic to andy's hse.
0210 reach andy's house. cgm started
0345 cgm ended
0525 reach home
0610 slp after eating all the snacks i can find at home
0800 wake up and have dinner
0820 trasvel to mel's house to practise guitar
0840 reached. started practising
0920 travelling back home
0935 reach home
0945 started typing here.. lol..


well.. all well ends well.. today is really a very slack and relaxing day.. :)

family issues

originally dun 1 to bring it up.. but can't take it anymore.. well..

it's my sister.. 2nd sis again.. well..this time everyone get pissed off by her.. sian..

juz becoz of a KIWI!!

the story starts when she bought 2 packs of kiwis home.. to eat HERSELF.. then mum asked her can she give (me and mum) each one.. since it's rottening soon.. and u have so much..

after all we are family mah..

then due to her selfish attitude.. AS USUAL.. she reluctantly give to us lah.. i was like eating supper and saw it...


then i told her it's okay for me and mum to share 1/2 of the kiwi each.. no need to give us 2...

then she said "u are my brother mah"

mum interfered (AT THE WRONG TIME) how abt give 1 more to ur elder sis..

then she got angry.. PMS..saying.." why muz i give her.. "

i was like.. well.. she is after all ur sister mah.. why does give her 1 kiwi being harm to u...


she said.. "na.. give you all lah.. i no need to eat lah.. ".. making me more agitated.. i am so pissed off.. and elder sis heard it and shout "WAT!@.@" ... she was so angry...


she(elder sis) told me privately.. what on earth muz she be involve in the quarrel between mum and her (2nd sis)..
then i felt like telling her..( it's like that.. u dunno what's happen when u were away in London.. 2nd sis almost dominate the whole family..throwing her temper and what's so ever.). but i juz told her.. aiya she is like that one.. then i go off to continue eating while i turn my radio the max volume.. covering the voice of my 2nd sis from being reached to my elder sis's ears.. but well the quarrel didn't stop..

my mum gets real upset.. me too.. i close the door and emo in the room.. telling myself.. why shld i give in to her for juz 1 kiwi.. shitty life...

it's so unfair and unreasonable.. haiz.. maybe.. that's juz life.. isn't it?

311008 mel's bd gathering

311008 went celebrated mel's bd with glisten inc.... at cp pizza hut.. hmm.. juz to lame abit.. a pic means a thousands words right?.. here are alot of thousands words.. :)

Guess who i am?.. it's the Bd gal!!


birthday gal, MEL.. and her lovely cake..


the HIGHLIGHT of the night.. "Hawaiian pizza and the new sichuan PIZZA!!" yumyum..

Shuai ge and mel!



What's the result of choco cake + cheese = choco cheese cake@.@


what's the weird expressions are all about!! :)


Grp photos TaKe1

Grp photos TaKe2.. Dun fight... :P


Well.. all wells.. ends well.. i really have a great fun and enjoyable time eating with my secondary mates.. it's like it has been SO long since we met.. and yet there are still chemistry in us..lol.. entertaining one another.. love it..

itpm quiz results

hmm.. ytd after the interview.. i rarely have the chance to revise last minute for this quiz.. was very high and playful.. everyone around me was like (heck-care) liao.. having fun.. me too.. can't really bother to study liao.. it's like everything can't be absorb into my brain already.. really thank God that i have spent 2 hrs on the impt pointers while i went thru the flipping of lecture slides revision without fallen asleep.. that time was like 2am when i slp...

no matter what.. due to ms Jo efficiency.. the whole course gotten back their quiz on today.. my score is (DRUM-ROLL)... 34 marks over 50marks.. hmm.. okay lah.. from my 2 hrs revision plus my hardworking attitude in trying to focus on tutorials and lectures did help me alot.. in tackling the questions.. so.. i shld say i am really satisfied with my results.. although there are like 4.5 marks careless marks.. (shld get 38.5..).. but still .. Praise Lord for that!

immediate feedback from CMSK

truthfully speaking.. i did blame mr seah from saying so that harsh words to me (telling me that i am not prepared, my answer very vivid).. quite sad lah.. but i was like.. well.. that's my part to play bah.. not really prepared well enough for my interview.. then what i prepared are more to myself.. not the job.. and yet.. he ask me ALOT ALOT about the job like why choose this job etcs..

come to think of it.. it's this bad experience that WARN me not to commit those silly mistakes again like saying the company "Has room for improvement" or i join the company because "i am a singaporean".. this crap lah.. maybe i really need to pause awhile to think for a couple of secs before i talk my words out.. that ten mins i really listen what he asked and i really continue instantly from what he left off loh.. quite amazing and yet quite scary lah..

after all it's quite memorable lah.. really noe how and what to prepare liao.. it really gives you an idea already..
i really pray hard that next yr when i go for job interview the real one.. will be even better.. I PROMISE!

Announcements!

Announcements!
HOHOO!.. i am so high.. finally found dao JJ's blog liao.. http://jjfusion.pixnet.net/blog

and he is coming to CITY HARVEST!!.. faints.. i am so excited and looking forward for 22/11/08!!

which also means that his own JJ party 3 is coming up.. will be bringing his album for autograph..

ANDAND!

MAYDAY is coming to TP to sing on 1st week of January.. need matric card and their album to exchange for 1 tick.. woohoo...
4/1/09: (tentatively) autograph session
5/1/09: own private concert.. need to queue ticks..

SO HIGH!!>.<.. woohoo.. spend money buy albums to support them is so great.. it makes my 19th birthday even more memorable!!

Good Frens make my world goes around

having a very slight headache right now, cannot be ytd red wine fault.. i guess i am lack of slp and rest bah..

anyway.. juz 1 to pop by saying that.. these few weeks i really enjoyed been with my clique.. it's like it has been back to the time.. the happy time.. since yh and wy has attached.. that's like a period that our clique gets separated coz jon me costllan wants to leave them alone.. yup.. now.. it's like the line has been drawn back again.. the grp gets closer..

might be becoz of garbriel.. ?.. i am not that sure.. but 1 thing to say, I AM REALY FORTUNATE TO BE WITH THESE GUYS AROUND..

it's all when my stress has suddenly gone and filled with laughters.. each of the faces of my veryvery good frens.. hmm.. really touched by how God placed every single individuals into my life.. helping me, guiding me, correcting me, cry with me, laugh with and at me.. thank God and thanks them.. :)

+ve thinking right!

feeling a bit insecure and having doubt in my capabilities in performing well in next week cmsk interview.. rahmesh keep emphasized on telling to prepare for the worst case scenario and must be prepared.. but i wonder.. even we are prepared but what if we stumble during the interview itself?

that's really a fear in me.. BUT i keep telling myself everything will be fine.. i have been thinking what to do and how to tackle already... really.. this time i won't want to fall over and "trip" again.. really..

practise and more practise.. in His grace, definitely i WILL pull through with great results.. !

+ve thinking right! :)

upset over myself

upset over myself
spent at least 4 hours for both resumes and cover letter. End up being commented as irrelevant, you noe how pissed off and upset it can be mah?.. those ideas are so great and yet grammar and vocab mistakes all over. I think that is my weakness bah.. scoring C5 for English O's and the poor foundation i had for pri and sec edu... hai..

not sure how come but just feel very overwhelm by thoughts running in my brain right now..i still rmb one of my form teacher said when i am in sec 3,

"Chee Meng, i noe you have worked hard already, Try Working smart. It helps especially to your grades."

4 hours of sitting infront of the com starring at the screen really didn't worked. I guess quantity work doesn't produce quality work bah, and quality work doesn't need quantity bah..

i totally can't see any direction ahead of me. It's like it has been blocked by something, an obstacle?.. i really need help to enlighten this path to my success....i hope i will be able to see it...SOON

a change of blogskin, a change of attitude?

a change of blogskin, a change of attitude?
can't believe ytd midnight i do this blogskin till 4am.. wah.. it was so long.. 4 hours.. but that's consider quite short.. compared to last time.. but really.. this time around is very late liao.. really affects my health condition.. physically.. doesn't feel very good right now...

this afternn went ktv at katong with costllan and shuxian.. celebrated costllan 18th birthday.. was fun actually.. surprising costllan...lol.. quite memorable.. the singing is so so lah.. i knew that i improved on my singing techs liao.. i think becoz of me been too tired.. that's why didn't get to enjoy much..

after that go to change my old jeans to new jeans at Levi's store.. i tell you.. that promotion is a GIMMICK.. the original price for the new jeans available is $149.90 the cheapest.. the exchange of old jeans can only deduct $50 from the original price.. meaning.. i need to spend around $100 on that jeans... wat the...

in the end, given my cheap-skit attitude.. of course.. i didn't change.. if i have changed, i am not the chee meng that you all noe liao.. sure kana possessed liao.. i mean.. i bought $100 out.. to buy clothes.. and.. who the person on earth will take out his 2 $50 notes for that jeans.. it's really illogical and insensible lah.. for now i mean..
given my tight money management and building fund is coming right up... got to know what is a NEED, and what is a WANT.. lol..

okay lah.. i gtg to go do my cmsk liao.. ciao..

ps: do give me any comments and feedback to improve on the blogskin's layout.. thanks

2 days upon sch re-open

2 days upon sch re-open
2nd day of sch and yet i have already despise going to sch.. why?... not sure..

is it becoz...

• Project Grouping?
• Unfair Treatment?
• Stress on Studies?
• NO motivation
• Tension building up
  
• Peer Pressure.. doubt so..
• Being too emotional.. MOST likely

Where is the happiest moments of my life when i am inYear1? where is the laughters and where is the unite 184 that i noe?.. or maybe i am wrong.. 184 didn't unite in the first place.. it is the circumstance that brought us closer bah.. i guess.. no matter what.. no point drilling down to the past and lagging behind..

that's it for now.. shldn't complain more.. ciao..

The truth.. OH!.. needs to be revealed now..

The truth.. OH!.. needs to be revealed now..
Answer to... "Is that ME?"


tml will be schooling... so well.. i can't continue to let you all guess already.. nvm.. next vacation.. i will post somemore of these.. haha.. :)

hmm.. juz to cut it short.. i will now give you 2 versions of supposed answers and i will tell you the answer at somewhere in this blog.. u can go look for it later.. :P

Version 1:
Obviously THAT'S ME.. well.. i supposed to be the one capturing this shot.. but my fren.. pushes me to do this.. so.. i bo pian.. need to do this "Stunt".. so.. dun worry guys.. this road is a dead end and that's no cars at all.. i really regretted doing such silly things lah.. but.. what to do.. do already mah.. haha.. but it's fun after all.. the feeling of lying on the road is like.. so scary.. really really need alot of courage to do so.. but i put it off.. lol.. maybe that time i am abit drunk lah.. opps.. shldn't say it out that i went drinking before that.. that's my 1st time drinking bah.. shh.. dun tell every1..well.. turn out to be this result.. hmm... but good pic right?.. i am Proud of doing this.. (claps)

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Version 2:
Obviously THAT'S NOT ME.. how on earth i will do such silly thing.. lying on the road.. oh NO.. what if suddenly there's a car turning by?.. then i will not have another day to live already.. even though if the road is dead end.. but how abt bicycle?.. it's really not realistic to do so lah.. somemore i admit that i am a person without much braveness.. lol.. won't do such stunt.. but i really really.. find this pic very cool lah.. maybe one day i shld go try it.. provided there are alot of my frens around me GUARDING lah.. anyway this pic is taken from myspace.. i try to find the link again to let you see the real him but i totally forgotten which is the person liao.. haha.. but no matter what let's give him a round of applause.. (claps)

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hehez.. so... 2 versions.. 1 answer.. go find bah.. 1 or 2.. u decide.. nono.. u go find :)

any purpose to work?

any purpose to work?
rushing here and there.. rushing for work.. rushing to take bus.. rushing off.. i am wondering.. it's that money that i really want?.. a few hundreds bunks really can mean anything mah?.. i dunno and dun think so.. what really matters to me?.. sitting in the bus.. for 1 hr.. back and fore.. does that count as wasting my time..

i teared when my stressed level reach a certain level.. come of think of it..wandering.. does crying do help?..

felt so helpless right now.. it's not that you are emotional or physically immobile.. it's just that.. suddenly.. u can't do the things you really want to do.. like meeting your frens and spending time with your family members.. meeting them it's really difficult..

and it bored down to loneliness.. really am i wasting my time?.. felt so hopeless..

i guess when i go attachment and later working.. it will be the same time or even worse bah.. really.. it really eat up your entire time.. and u really need to be drag to go work.. somemore stress is accumulating.. ppl is looking highly upon you.. i dunno how long i can tahan any longer.. felt so tired.. really.. feel like giving up.. but i can't.. i dun want to.. it's not my purpose.. that's not my motive.. that's not my aim.. i dun want everything to be wasted.. i dun want to lose everything.. help!.. give me the motivation once again.. give me the strengthen to continue to move on.. please.. i beg.. i need the courage.. the bravery.. give me those.. i pray..

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dun bother about me.. i will picked myself up de.. given my character.. i will.. juz give me some time.. i think this is life? isn't it?.. you get to taste abit of here and there.. like a slice of cake like that.. a mouthful of this, a mouthful of that.. tis make your life complete.. i have one motto..

"The earth wouldn't stop revolve around the sun, the sun wouldn't stop giving out heat to the humans, the humans wouldn't stop for other humans only when they care.. i mean.. when THEY DO CARES.."

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i have seen teenagers died in an early age as early as ten plus.. i am NOT afraid.. okay.. i should say i am not afraid of facing death.. but i am afraid of dying.. too much dreams to be take into realistic.. too much souls to be saved.. too much love to NOT having the time to spread.. when will my life stops?.. that's really a question mark..

live my life to the fullest?.. how.. i am trying to.. but how really can it take into reality.. i miss morning prayer meeting.. i miss 184.. i miss every single classmate of mine.. i miss every single good friend of mine.. i miss the moment that i longed lost.. felt so empty right now.. guess i will slp earlier tonight.. listening to some good songs to accompany me to slp bah.. good night..

Topic of the month of vacation:

Topic of the month of vacation:


Okay okay.. it's voting time..
Those vote TRUE

1. Will: "believe, why not, cos look like."
2. Vic: "yap. cos the size like u. then the dressin style similar to u"
3. Iz: "Yes. why trouble yourself not to believe. Believing is easier than doubting."
4. Genie: "haha the size abit lik u lolx"
5. WeiZ (reconsidering): but the way you position your leg is slightly you

Those vote FALSE

1. ShuXian: you dun wear this kind of shoes and you are not those person who lie on the road.
2. Jonathan: no. dun think you will do such a thing
3. Genie (reconsidering again): "chu fei u tel me tis road is dead end or some deserted road lor ^o^"
4. WeiZ: because your HAIR (have to use caps because small letters is emoicon) is not yours. besides your skin is slightly tanned.
   

this survey will be here until my vacation is over.. please tag me to post your vote.. EVERY VOTE COUNTS. it really means how you all look at me?.. so think wisely and CAST YOUR VOTE RIGHT NOW..

the results will be released every week and the TRUTH will be REVEALED only when my vacation is over..

enjoy voting and plz think with a second thought..:)

(That's my life.. isn't it?)

(That's my life.. isn't it?)(especially those in bold.. and italics)
专辑:完整演出 黄义达-我懂

欢迎光临真实生活 请往前走哦
不论你我喜欢与否 都得经过哦
当回忆静止在相框里头 剩下沉默哦
当岁月刻画出我的轮廓
我已成熟 换上不同的笑容


我没有你想像中 那么不堪一击的脆弱
不争不斗不代表 有谁可以踩上我肩头
现实我懂哦哦 残酷我懂
我学会小心翼翼 在这钢筋丛林里存活

这个世界什么都有 真假交错哦
哭过笑过爱过痛过 都会经过哦
当回忆静止在相框里头 剩下沉默哦
当岁月刻画出我的轮廓
我已成熟换上不同的笑容

想自由就要放开手

想证明就要敢追求

想飞翔就要往前走

天空如此辽阔哦~~~

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我没有你想像中
那么不堪一击的脆弱
不争不斗不代表
有谁可以踩上我肩头
现实我懂哦哦 残酷我懂
我学会小心翼翼 在这钢筋丛林里存活

#其实很多事情我都懂
只是我选择不说
刻意的低调不代表
我允许谁来招惹我

#冷漠我懂哦哦 虚伪我懂
了解游戏规则后
就努力别让自己犯错

repeat #

Random posts

just a random post.. hmm.. dunno how i can i feel this way right now.. now is F1 period.. but i still can't seems to get that F1 fever.. looking on my big tv screen.. it juz ... didn't go along with me..

now i am listening to some emo- songs.. lol.. dunno why.. juz feel like that.. dun bother to watch any videos or read any stuffs already.. maybe the joss-sticks has made my eyes blurry.. juz now my mum prayed.. and the smokes is filled in the whole living room.. my eyes are consider quite easy to get irritated.. sensitive too.. yup.. like my character.. lol.. sian.. i think i need an early rest.. really dunno what to do now..

maybe i will go random surfing the net bah.. all the best to me.. thanks.. :)

my dreams and goals

juz a short one before i post a long one tml..
one of my collegue, Eric told me about this...

"dun worry, Jim, you will have no problem getting to collegue. Even how bad your results are, given that you have the money, everything is possible. "

well.. hmm.. i think that's something to think about.. hmm.. at least i noe that my results now can be my stepping board to reach my final target. I noe the path way to there will be tough, but it wouldn't be impossible.

As i noe that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..

even how difficult it will be.. i will still strive hard and even harder enough to reach my target

1st CHOICE: NTU Business
2nd CHOICE: SIM Business
3rd: CHOICE: London UCL

i juz 1 to write it here to constantly remind myself for this target.. i noe that i am transform.. i must change.. i noe who i am.. i noe i must be who i need to be.. i noe i must do what to achieve the target..

i will study smart (not hard) to reach the cumulative target of 3.25 and above.. i noe that 3.5 is too far.. but 3.25.. i working on that.. it wouldn't be easy as usual.. but really.. this supp re-exam and these few days of working has made me realise something..

Even how difficult life will be, God will still lay down the path for you to walk through the darker storms and the greatest seas.

i believe i will pull through to be a successful banker one day like Euzanne, to be a Praise and Worship leader one day..

and to really fulfill my dream of becoming a chinese teacher eventually when i have too much money to invest in.

will you guys help me to fulfill this dreams?

It's possible..

Only when you are willing to give it a try.

i am going to..

are you? :)

PissERS.. PissEST of me!

PissERS.. PissEST of me!
hmm.. tonight (now) we are celebrating my elder sis birthday.. hmm.. then my sister-in law.. Spen is with us.. originally the day went quite well.. it's that almost half of the family is not around.. wah.. what will Spen thinks?.. hmm.. my sister is abit upset with that.. so.. nvm.. i keep cheering the family up.. also..

actually i myself already quite pissed off liao.. then after hearing to the following news.. i become more pissed.. hmm..

this afternn.. my sister and my sister-in law (Spen) went for interview for my sister in law to work in my sister company.. but things doesn't went well.. the interviewee asked him the following silly qns..and they answer back themselves..

• Sir, from our resource, you doesn't qualify this position we are finding, and you do not have the qualification and experience for this.
• I think you can't cope with the weather here in Singapore.
• There will mosquitoes all around when you go hiking and outdoor activities. I bet you can't cope with that..
• What is your 5 years plan from now?

I mean PLEASE LOH.. for 1st pt when you do counseling.. the normal procedure is to accept the job and the company will send the staff to study the rightful courses.. why do we need qualifications in the first place? for 2nd pt.. i mean.. For Christ Sake.. this also can also been ask in the interview.. ?..i nearly faint becoz of that..3rd pt.. this is RIDICULOUS.. a policeman in UK is scared of mosquitoes??!!!.. OH MAN!.. no comments..

5 years plan from now?.. who will think of that when you can't even settle down in one country.. dam.. so pissed off.. when ended.. the interviewees even said..

we will let you noe if u gotten employ.. meanwhile you are more than welcome to find other jobs and get interview. Thanks.


WHAT THE! no wonder my sis look so glum.. i wonder how my sister in law can "covered" so good.. he looks so cheerful.. hmm.. i hope everything from now went well enough.. looks like everything is settled after my sister told the family about this above stuff..

it really boils down to.. why are Singaporeans so protective in employing foreign talents.. i thought the govt is encouraging this.. the worse of the worst is that.. this job position actually isn't there.. meaning.. there is no "opening" for the department.. means they are not prepared to employ ppl since they dun need to..

then i am really wondering.. why does they need to call them to go interview.. OH!.. frustrated.. :"(

before the battle

before the battle
juz a short one.. hai.. i felt lost.. i dunno have i done enough revision or not.. i only know that i have been studying studying and studying.. what i am unsure is my brain.. whether it has absorbed the info or not.. hai.. i am totally clueless when i saw the tutorial qns after i have revise the lecture on that day before.. so does it mean i forgotten everything for that lec?..

i felt so helpless.. i dunno how to help myself.. i noe who can help me.. i juz dunno what can i ask them to help.. they wanted to help me.. i wanted to be help.. juz...

juz.. this help will help?.. or .. i dunno.. i am still stucked with 2 more impt concepts.. i dunno what to do.. i think i need to try my very best to remember everything liao.. calculation still alright.. the theory is making me blur blur.. i think this 1 last day will be the final le bah..

i dun fear of failing becoz i noe that i WILL pass.. i keep telling myself that.. but all those failing scenes have been in my mind.. i dun want to repeat the whole module and repeat another year. .i want to graduates with my buddies.. i dun 1 to let go.. that's y i am trying so hard to focus.. to help myself.. i want to cry.. but crying doesn't help.. that's what i noe.. i will keep on trying.. since i dun have much more time to continue trying liao..

blessed me can?.. drop me an encourage message (sms/call).. thanks.. i need that.. feel so lonely now..

Pics pics pics (3)

Pics pics pics (3) -- Orange and ME!
Following are some of the random pics i taken using my phone.. :) nevertheless.. they are all ORANGE!


orange label of DUN LITTER.. taken on the Big Mac package box.. lol..

Spot the difference (1)

One of the art piece for the ASEAN children.. should be drawn by a child.. very nice right?.. i'm attracted by this and i still SECRETLY shot this.. lol.. it's at one of the art fair at Raffles City..on national day itself :)


Spot the difference (2)

orange.. bright orange table.. can u believe that!.. it's orange table for eating at Bishan Junction8 foodcourt.. shot taken when zhiyuan and i was shopping for stuff..

So do u like my orangey pics!! okay.. i'll not bored you with more liao..!

Pics pics pics (2)

Pics pics pics (2)

Liu li yang and Lin you jia school concert..1 of a Thu that i forgotten the date..
This is the screen pic
check out (link) for my videos upload in youtube

CHC Newcomers' dinner at Roland Seafood restuarant (Parkway) @ 1 of the sunday in July

It's very good to be invited and welcomed in this big family.. this year newcomers that graduated from this class is the largest in CHC history.. i really enjoyed the restaurant's food (more than 6 courses menu).. very glad to how City Harvest grew.. Yum food.. i love food! btw.. there's my name tag.. below my name is my zone pastor..

Joseph Bible School Graduation @ one of the Sunday in Expo in Aug

Joseph shuai shuai photo (solo)

Joseph with dad.. sorry for the tilting of head

hAndsome guys.. ermm.. Joseph with me

Joseph with mich.. sorry for the tilting of head

I am really really proud of Joseph.. he came so far and i really really can see him growing spiritually and mentally.. very very glad that he has enroll in Bible School.. jia you Joseph.. continue Shine for God!

Pics pics pics (1)

Pics pics pics (1)
Everyone here in blog always said my blog is too wordy.. now i give you all the pictures!.. Happy!? ..haha..


This is the lion painting in *Scape Park around Somerest Mrt there.. taken 1 month ago. I am not sure it's still there or not.. If interested can go check it out. I shoot this picture becoz if u look carefully.. the fur is written "The people to power!" or vice versa lah.. haha..

This is shoot by me.. obviously it's not in good quality.. ppl involved from left.. yanhao, maoqian and half pic of me.. lol.. taken at city hall mrt station platform on 1 unknown sat same as above.


@ compass pt mac lunch after teacher's day celebration
Candid picture shot by mel of me (from left) and eric
Group photo. (From left) jean, claud, mel, liang, meng, eric:)
The handsome guys (p.u.k.e.)

* Thank mel de photographer
** Ps: I look good in white right.. special thanks to my frens for this white SUPERMAN tee.. woohoo!

impactful week

impact-full week

8 Sept Mon: accompany xiuy to go polyclinic for check-up.. the consultation went on very draggy that i end up slp.. i need to apologise becoz that night before i slp at 4am and wake up at 9am to help Will.. haha.. one more thing.. next time when visit hougang polyclinic.. if u ever come to consultation room 21, plz ask to change ur room.. we were like waited for more 3 hours and the check-up are all manually.. means that we need to go up and down and up again.. spend 5 hours in there lo.. luckily got Jon as accompaniment.. we even visit jon's house since it's only 5 mins walk.. very fun but scary to see his 2 dogs.. haha.. but good lah.. can see how CUTE they are..

9 Sept Tue:
2.15pm- 3.45 pm: sit inside bus 80 and bus 100 to rot to harbourfront and later to Alexandra .. long journey bus mah.. who ask me want to save that $1.50 mrt fare loh.. serve me right..
3.45pm- 4.15pm: Collect my beloved phone.. and end up paying $26.75 for a new spare battery for this phone.. i wonder did they trick me.. but nevertheless.. i dun wish to travel to there again liao.. so far..it's like from the one breadth of the island to another loh..
4.15pm- 5.40pm: travel down to orchard to meet hari.. end up she too late.. i too early.. i waited for 1 hour while writing my diary lah.. can't go window shopping *(it hurts when u have the money beforehand but can't buy it now since u spend it juz before that)..

5.40pm- 7pm: hari came and we go on shopping around orchard and we settle at Taka to watch sayhaow selling m00ncakes.. lol.. too bad he didn't saw us.. i even go to his stall and TRY his mooncake loh.. very sweet.. ha..
7pm- 8.30pm: we settle down at Breeks to have our dinner.. sayh joined us since that's his break.. i ate alot and paid alot.. still owe hari $25 dollars loh.. sad.. but the new creation "Cheeze Browie" is quite unique.. (when the pics is up then let me explain to u bah)


8.30pm- 9.20pm: buying ticks for HANA KIMI DANGO FINALS!.. woohoo.. aka flowers over boys..we brought the ticks and wait for sayh to end his work.. then we have some photo shoots.. (upload later)

9.35pm movie starts!

quote what hari's saying.. it's juz like watching the drama but in long version.. this movie end the 2 seasons off..tell you what.. i dunno how crazy can be when i really really watch this 2 seasons for this few days loh.. pity that mysoju is down for maintenance.. so i can't complete season 2.. but overall i like the moment when i been forced to stop at that part when "Weed" wants to tell "rui" the truth.. i want "Rui" to be with "weed".. haha.. but no matter what.. this movie is very romantic and alot of site-seeing since they traveled alot.. good.. the main motive for their travel is very touching.. although i didn't cry lah.. obviously!.. haha..

12am movie end..
can't believe it is so long.. but nevertheless.. it's a GREAT movie and worth paying $7.50 to watch.. so late already how leh.. sayh board his last train to kranji.. while hari took a taxi from orchard back to her home.. me leh.. since i only have $10.. i spent 1 hour on the bus and later transferred to cab to bring me home in tampines.. bus 65..

12.15am- 1.15am: i'm so surprise that the bus drove so slow in purpose loh.. it's like it drove so slow just to meet a red light.. but every green light he going to drive past didn't turn to red light.. serve him right for delaying my time.. i thought i can take bus 27 last bus home de.. at 12.40.. but given the speed.. hai..

1.15am.. i alighted and chiong to get a cab since there;s a whole queue of taxi.. yes.. u didn't see wrongly.. i typed.. "taxi".. not ppl..i board.. the first qn i ask is "how much like that to travel from here to sengkang" he said more than $10.. i end up need to call back home to ask for more money to top up the rest.. but the journey is quite fast.. although that's my first time taking midnight taxi home alone.. which really gives me the creeps.. i think i watched too much horror clips.. lol..

1.30am reach home downstair.. fare : $11.40.. lol.. the midnight extra charges really super scary.. it doubles everytime.. thank God i choose to travel to tampines and take to sengkang.. if not..

i am really blessed on that day.. since i gotten the last few bus ride and it stop infront of me when i reach the bus stop opposite orchard cine.. yup.. amazing it is although i kana scolded by my mum for staying out so late.. :P
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10 Sept wed:
i noe that's not something to show off.. my result for this sem is a surprise.. those i think i will juz pass FAIL.. or do very well.. those i think will do better it's below my expectation..

BIS and COTS i thought i am getting a B.. instead i get a C
DERV and CASH i thought i am getting a D.. instead i get a C+
FOI is the one i need to take sup paper.. the moment i saw the sms.. cause it's the first line in the sms.. i was like.. sure or not.. i thought i can skim though it.. nevertheless i think i deserve it since i didn't have a proper revision.. but it's not that last min.. it's just that i forgotten everything especially the formulas i need to apply for those qns.. sian..

11 Sept Thu:
i am so shocked that ms eelin goh (FOI tutor/lecturer) called just now.. so surprise.. then i told what happen.. she told me maybe it becoz of mental block.. she told me there will be a revision tutorial tml.. so i am looking forward for that.. although she said that the exam paper is even tougher.. jia you bah.. JIM@.@

12 Sept Fri:
1) Sch for tutorial
2) Study in school
3) Dinner with euz and vic at chomg bang hawker centre

less busy schedule*sing twice this week

less busy schedule*sing twice this week

01 Sept Mon:
1) Buying Season parking @ Rivervale Plaza
2) Accompany Xy to go NTUC and makan famous western food @ a coffee shop beside Hougang Plaza
3) Cut my hair into spike
4) Night: Cousin's Wedding dinner. Yum Yum, 9 courses dishes. Above my average. Love to eat the next time given the same dishes:)

02 Sept Tue: Outing with Costll and ShuX..
- Makan LAKSA in katong..woohoo.. fantastic.. juz that i find that the noodles abit too less.. lol
*- KTV @ katong for 4 hours straight down.. so shiok!.. i continue to sing my emo songs.. but great to sing with the two of them. (Next appointment: End of Oct:))
(didn't went Shopping cause quite late liao)

03 Sept Wed:
Repair phone.. wah.. it's damn far and out of the way.. i travel 3 hours by bus then reach loh.. ya lah.. i save money by taking long journey bus.. but it's really far leh.. next time i shall take mrt.. fast but waste money lah.. haha.. but i really sit in the bus rot loh.. and my buttock nearly burst..
(didn't went since jiany is not free.)

04 Sept Thu:
Slack at home.. raining mah.. no plans so decide to stay at home to watch finish my Kamen Rider Den-O.. wah.. this is really very funny.. it's like normally masked rider.. but his imagins (means helpers) can possessed him to help him.. very funny.. lol.. yup.. i watched untill last ep loh..

05 Sept Fri:
1) Go back school to print notes
*2) Meet Vic for k-lunch.. sing alot of duets.. nicenice.. good good.. dunno why my singing in KBox improved liao.. haha..:)

3) Give Econs Tuition to Vic on the bus while we traveled IMM.. then we shop around and have our chicken rice dinnner there.. i ate 2 bowls of rice loh..:)

4) "60 secs of frame" at Jurong West at 1900
- when on quite well.. the performance is below my expectation lah.. i mean.. some performances not fantastic.. hai.. but the main purpose is not that lah.. afterall.. most of our frens that we invited did response.. which was good.. hehez.. look forward to see our cg increases..

06 Sept Sat:
1) Swim (Replacement) at Anchorvale CC - the slides was awesome.. it's good to swim and explore new areas..

2) Makan at Buangkok Hub.. can u believe that.. we WALK from swimming complex to there.. then somemore keep raining drizzle loh.. but the ice kacang quite nice lah.. they gave alot of red beans.. after that jy, kp and me go NTUC there to buy prunes.. they labeled wrong prices.. thank God we discovered earlier before paying cash.. saved back 40 cents.. haha..

3) Celebrate aunt mary birthday dinner @ Shangi-la hotel..WOoho0.. wah.. the dinner area is called "The line" which offers international buffet.. got jap delicacies, pizza, local delights, oriental, French bread, desserts, cakes and fruits.. i can't even rmb every food that i eat.. hehe.. i love the sha-shi-mi..so fresh.. then every food that bite in my mouth is tasty.. can u believe that!.. lol.. we spent 5 hours eating slowly and chit chatting.. so good.. nice environment.. they even celeb my aunt birthday with a cake.. obviously it's my another "Aunt" who tell them de lah.. but good good.. most impt thing is that..all the decorations, walls, set up are all in bright orange.. wah.. i really fall in love in that.. :)

07 Sept Sun:
1) Sun morning service.. great..
2) NO Cellgrp.. me kp and van end up go changi airport to have our little snacks.. the chatting when on quite bad.. but what i can say is that.. i am being true about myself, happy or not, we still need to bear with it.

WAY BUSY SCHEDULE

WAY BUSY SCHEDULE!

28/8 thu:
1) K-box @ hougang with zy x2, ah kai and sherilyn. (ah-ma sick.. pray pray for her!)
- Fun, i got to sing at least 5 solo songs.. very happy.
- i got this zhang shao han effect that no matter i sing her songs.. my voice will change.. next time sing to you!

2) Badminton @ hougang with sec sch frens, kweep, jiany, zhaox,weij, sengy. (in the end didn't get to play..)
- Too rush liao.. then we have difficulties booking 2-4pm the slot.. in the end.. they booked 4.30pm onwards de.. so i can't continue..

3) Class Farewell dinner with mr toh at Manhanttan Fish Market @ Central
- photos will be out soon.. really happy i can spend time with my class.. fellowshipping and.. the photos that we have taken are really very meaningful!

4) Lounge relaxation
- Love this most.. i got to drink some hard liquor.. mix with orange and sprite lah.. actually it's not that easy to drunk.. haha.. love the atmosphere but scare of the temptation of wanting to go on and on

29/8 fri:
1) Teachers' day celebration plus sec sch frens' gathering
- Finally met mrs chia already.. so cool.. she gain her lame level liao.. so funny.. it's really good been back to school again.. met some of my juniors.. jia you guys! you can do the school proud de..

2) Lunch with glisten. inc.
- Mac lunch.. i ate all the fries.. the 2 guys above didn't eat much.. so i end up eating more, now got a bit sore throat liao.. sian.. but good lah.. i tried Big Mac Extra Value Meal finally.. haha.. the meat taste abit hard lah.. i dun wish to eat again.. haha.. (refer to above posts for pics)

3) Hana Jap drama
- watching this drama from like 9pm to 1am... 4 hours.. the drama was like way cool and the storylines and plot are really exciting.. and unpredictable.. the movie is up.. go watch.. refer to above post for movie review

30/8 sat:
1) Children church helping in the morning till afternoon
2) Service from mid afternoon (was drenched.. been forced to stay in jurong. but good lah.. i am really tired.)
3) Fellowship at night (i was too tired and sick to go down to expo..)

31/8 sun:
1) Service in the morning (make my decision to go since this weekend sermon is 2 parts series.. that day is part2)
2) Prawn fishing in the afternoon at Pasir Ris Town Park
3) Dinner at Pizza restaurant at Orchard. (cancelled! cause no one wants to go..)
4) House Downstair visits with Euz... (really tiring.. but i am glad that we finally have the time to go and visit sy and kp already..hope they knew that we did really care and love them bah.. as what euz said. Finally, i can let all my troubles towards cg all down liao.. thank God.. you have proven your strengthen to me again.. thank you!

看袂落去 lyrics

周杰伦为新人萧闳仁指导MV
This is a new MV directed by Jay Chou

看袂落去

词：萧闳仁/武雄/陈建宁
曲：萧闳仁

社会上有太多奇奇怪怪的代志
有真多人不愿意面对现实
听讲算命的巷仔口有真多人在排队
但是在我看来无意义

哈啊真无稀奇(有钱就判生没钱就判死)
哈啊我看袂落去

**明那仔我要赶十点的飞凌机希望你暂时麦有代志
听听听讲我的烦恼是因为你
外面的空气总是让人快要窒息
但是在我的世界里
Oh I just want be free
(Yeah) (Oh Come on)

RAP
这咧社会三不五时就会有很多
有真多人的感觉已经变的不会讲话
你咧讲啥货我咧讲啥货大家到底是咧讲啥货
这咧是啥货那咧是啥货黑白讲话

谁都想要过了轻松有一天能出头天（爱拜拜拜拜神明）
外面世界这开阔（这开阔）
你还不出去（你你你咧等什么）
人生明明是彩色的你却甲它渐渐变作黑白
真心的朋友找无一个

哈啊I wanna be free
哈啊My name is BE FREE~

Repeat **~**

SO impressed by this song.. this is a new singer from SonyBMG music.. 萧闳仁 (xiao hong ren).. i knew through yulebaifenbai show.. then went to youtube to watch this MV that xiaogui mentioned.. at first.. i thought it's in mandarin.. then i was like.. how come odd odd de..

BOOM.. it's in taiwanese language.. and a mixture to mandarin in chrous.. rap in taiwanese loh.. wow was the word for it.. then the tune was so catchy.. sort of come to love it.. so juz 1 to share this with you all..

full version video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQSo29DCCXA
:) and ps: Sijia... heard of this mah?.. i bet you would have..u were always so informative de.. lol..:)

Presentations and more presentations but it's ALL over

Presentations and more presentations but it's ALL over
Derv presentation is like very shiok since i need to receive qns and only i can reply back. Solo mah.. but it's really very funny shooting back.. all those courage in CORE presentation all come back liao.. Thank God (@.@).. hehez..

COTS presentation too.. i managed to answer 1 and half qn.. very happy..

the rest i forgotten liao..

Ping Pong Silver!

Ping Pong Silver!

Wah.. finally can blog liao.. felt so guilty.. so now reward ur all with alot alot of posts in one go.. first up!..

Ping Pong Olympics Game.. wah.. that time when our national flag rose up to the top.. i felt so touched loh.. ALMOST ALMOST tears.. luckily i didn't.. lol.. but i really feel very very honoured and proud of the team... they really did a FANTASTIC job in counterattack the China team..award silver medal in the history of 48th years.. and the medal is been served by the previous silver award medalist... wah.. THE MOMENT.. was so memorable:)

Olympics Olympics.. for the past 1 week.. i have been watching some of the matches on tv.. and it is really enjoyable and excited to see those athletics playing sport.. i wonder when will i have the courage to play beach volleyball at the beach and been targeted by pretty ladies out there ..lol...

Mistakes and misunderstanding

Mistakes and misunderstanding
well.. in one week.. i make the same mistake and misunderstand another issue again.. well.. i guess i am play ignorant.. haha.. no.. i guess i think too much liao.. sometimes.. i dunno why.. i have been over-sensitive.. sensitive is good.. but when it turns to over-sensitive.. it becomes uncontrollable.. somemore.. i can tense to be abit too emotional over matters..

i guess when all of the these combined together.. i become very emo loh.. haha..

ya.. she is right.. thinking back at what she is trying to implying last thu.. it all fits together in one piece liao.. maybe i am just giving myself false hopes to move on.. which i hate myself for that.. i guess.. i need to change..

"A leopard cannot change its spot"

hopefully, a ah-meng here can change its "furs" to be less sensitive and emotional bah..

wish me luck

:)

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2
Quoted from a good fren of mine, " Just a word of advice, dun trust everyone, even the close ones around you. You still dunno them better enough!"

ytd i was having a talk with him.. discovered alot of non-discovered stuffs.. well i am not mainly/partly involved.. just that i noe some of them in the incident..well..

"really can't judge a book by its cover"

the news in the call came in too shocking and amazing.. how the person (not the one i am talking) did plan so well.. i dunno lah.. i guess he is smart bah.. but

For justice and TRUTH.. i am going all the way out to protect my FRIENDS from him.. he is an unpredictable guy.. so let's hope that God can give him the punishments for his wrongs..

i will do my part.. just wish me all the best and i'll update you all once again

dun worry, i will be fine.. i noe everything has the limit.. well.. i noe my limit to that incident..

:)

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

Publicly! i REALLY REALLY want to apologised for the wrong info carried forward..

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

""2 days back i was worried for her.. she off her hp.. i sent her a 3 sms long msg hope she can get less troubled over a problem that i dunno.. but now.. come to think..(1) it is this problem that she is upset about.. i dunno what's her mood when she write that post lah..(2) angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. it really made me very upset that.. very upset.. i dunno how i can finish my FOI.. one problem after another..(3) i guess i shld stop grping with her.. (4) from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.. (5) i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. ... ...."

i want to settle every details that i wrote once and for all.. i dun want everyone to misunderstand i mean ANYMORE.. and i also dun wish my relationship with her ever fallen back again..

(1) ""it is this problem that she is upset about.."" : what i mean is that i predicted at that point of time that her disappointment is the problem that she is upset about..( but i am wrong!)

(2) ""angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. "" : that time i am very furious and i really felt ashamed of me writing this.. i guess i am juz over angry.. but what i seen and my thoughts and actions have been consumed by the "DIRTY" feelings from the devil.. (pardon me if i say something that is too personal)

(3) ""i guess i shld stop grping with her": i guess i am too harsh in saying that.. the thought just zoom in to my brain and i juz type in down in words.. that IS A FOOLISH THOUGHT!

(4) ""from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.."": that should be the correct phrase.. not "Withstand" her.. i juz can't understand why she is in a bad mood and that point of time.. in COTS lab.. i upset her abit with some silly jokes..our grp of guys went to far then i give up the final blow.. lol.. i shall not say more.. i felt that i should be scolded and slap! maybe i am trying to far off to understand her le bah.. in the way that i go all the way to think too much liao..

(5) "" i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. "": that's the corrected version..


Sometimes when words are laying infront of you in the com screen and you tend to think of the way that you feel about these strings of words and infer them that is not in the CORRECT frequency as the person who is trying to imply to you (viewers).. that's where everything started to goes wrong.. and SPAM!.. the untrue rumours started spreading and spreading..

This is really what i dun WISH to see.. so u can see.. sometimes.. i didn't posted much personal stuffs with details on the blog.. but given that.. from my knowledge.. the ppl who see my blog are all my close frens.. i thus can let go abit of my happenings around lah.. but i guess that particular post is really the worst one i have ever written.. spell errors all over.. that time i am over fumed and over frustrated liao.. dunno y.. it's getting from bad to worse..

i guess i really need someone to teach me how to manage my anger liao.. but dun worry.. this post is a promising one.. why?.. becoz i can feel a peace in my heart!

ps: i have a new name called Charles Law.. quite like it lah.. thanks everyone for their good laugh.. especially wany for her newly creation of name.. although there is a RICH STORY behind it.. very funny.. those who 1 to noe.. ask me personally bah.. sure u laugh untill cannot tahan.. but good lah.. Charles sounds more professional compared to Jimmy.. sounds so childish.. haha.. but no matter what..

as long as i can bring joy to my friends, there will be no limits to where and how i can go to achieve the high and the low for them.. i am not lying.. trust me.. trust OCBC.. nono..

last up.. by demand, i went to see wany's blog.. juz one to give a RANDOM shout-out that..

WANYING! I HAVE LOVE YOU MORE THAN i have loved you last time.. !!
Really really thank God for his plans of this trials.. i guess it will strengthen both of us?.. what did you think?.. haha.. yup.. He did strengthen my faith.. :)

Take care everyone!

Unresolved..

Unresolved.. of a NEW problem..
i think she (another) will see it.. but i dun care.. put inside my heart.. i feel really very suffocating..
"nothing is impossible".. i guess i need to consider trusting this phrase liao..

(can't describe her.. )
(can't tell the incident)

but what i can say is.. which i 1 to tell her is that.. after ytd night.. nth much happen lah.. but when reach this morning.. i dunno why.. that feelings that i have for these few mths like disappear liao.. i dunno.. i somehow do not have that feeling for her liao.. then.. dunno lah.. maybe my heart wasn't right?..

maybe i still need to time to overcome/recover.. i still think my side here is a small matter.. i guess i bother too much bah.. or did i really care for her too much..

sometimes i wonder why i am so selfless.. i give up?... dunno leh.. i guess the time is not right for me to tell her that i like her.. everytime for different crushes.. i will just hide it very VERY well.. she is one of them.. one that i want to hide it as a secret.. i guess no one really will take note of that bah.. but that's good.. at least i have some good memories of us been together.. i dun think she will ever re-read this post.. so let's make this a special one..

i cherish the moments that i and her have together.. as a good fren, a good sister, a good brother, a good... whatever.. all those will be in my heart/mind de..

: Ai .......... : i will give up myself as an admirer of yours from NOW oh.. go to the man that you ALWAYS love.. i zhu fu ni! your guardian angel, always will be here for you de.. dun worry.. i wouldn't posed any feelings on you anymore.. cause this is the relationship that is forbidden for me to do.. NI YAO XIN FU!

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due
last mon, we have our DER lesson and guess what, wany makes her decision to fix her grp liao.
Well, i am happy for her la, at least she gets what she really wants,

i have honourly given the chance of 4 person in grp to her, well.. she did alot for me already.. and i should be grateful to her.. haha..

that moment.. when i give up my chance.. i did noe that God is with me.. how to say leh.. when Jon told me.. "Eh, can 4ppl in a grp leh.. you, me, siyun, sijia lah" .. then siyun and sijia also got give me eye contact.. then i mouth to her.. wy they all 4 ppl liao.. then i told her..(our) 3 will do.. "

one side of mind said.. "ahyo.. cheemng, this is your chance, ever since 3 mths back you have been long to join siyun sijia liao, now is your chance to form grp with them.. what are you waiting for?"

another side of mind is saying.. "Dun listen to it.. trust your heart.. think of Jon.. think of Wy.. ya.. dun raise your hand.. "

so instead in that split second i urge wany to go write her group names first.. coz it's first come first serve basis mah.. i am glad lah.. at least.. i can do something for her.. :)

ON the OTHER side of the story
that day then i noe that's so many ppl reading my blog.. chinsheng, alice, andy, wany, wah.. lots lots that i dun think they will noe the existence of my blog read my blog.. scary ah.. haha..

yup.. so... i guess one good thing is that.. i noe that someone did really cares for me lah.. haha..
bad thing is no more privacy loh.. no lah.. kidding.. at least they care.. and bother..

End

End of my misery, start of happiness?
In the end, it's all a misunderstanding.. i guess i gotto laugh at my over-senitiveness lah.. after plucking my courage to call her at the same night, she didn't mean what she is trying to implying in her blog.. then she is not sad (upset) about me.. juz disappointed and shock that i going to leave the project grping only..

i guess is i guess too much liao lah.. then for Jon.. i finally settled my thoughts liao.. yup.. i can't leave with him.. that's the idea.. thinking from the first day of school till now.. he has been with me.. beside me.. he really taught me alot.. scold me for my foolishness.. and alot alot more that still hidden in my heart.. really.. i appreciate everything that he does for me.. thank you!

finally finish my Global Citizenship and CASH processing modules already.. i am really happy, overjoyed, overwhelm with enjoyment today.. let me tell you why..
7am- 8am: i took the empty bus 27.. i thought i miss the empty one.. but.. i didn't.. 5mins after i reach the bus stop.. the bus came.. really a good start..
8am-9am: first time i have even so concentrate in my DER lecture (slp for 4hrs only).. i still be able to concentrate to every single word that ms lina said.. wah.. really real amazing.. that's when i noe today is a special day liao..
9am-9.30am: Reuters lab printing FOI.. the start of yuanh suaning me.. haha.. today.. i didn't feel any bad or any sadness of the suan.. infact.. i like been suan... i love been suan.. i guess there must be something wrong with me liao.. maybe not enuf slp bah.. then i jump here jump there de..

9.30am- 10.30am: me, costllan, yuanh, wany, sijia,siyun went to tampines mall de Mac eat BREAKFAST.. wah.. that's one of the highlight of the day... FOOD@.@.. i really miss my BIG BREAKFAST.. and now i am able to ate that..wow.. i love every single bite of the scramble egg.. sausage slice, the bread, the jam.. the hashbrown and the milo.. i scald my tongue becoz of the hotness.. /\./\

you can see how hyper i am when i sit down there eating and cracking VERY SILLY COLD jokes at the same time... i guess there must be something wrong with me liao

10.30am-12.00pm: after breakfast, we went up to play ARACADE.. wah.. tell you what... that's the 6th or 7th i have really play aracade.. and i really SPEND on playing the games loh.. i spent $4 on the card.. then play drum with wany.. .very fun.. it's about rhythm.. then you got to beat the drums at the right beat and rhythm.. then we were laughing like hell when the chinese new year song is been played.. we selected it lah.. then when we strike the drum.. the CNY song came in.. we laughed untill stomach pain.. i still rmb the pandas there inside the machine demoing kungfu moves..

then we end up, play the stepping of bees game.. that game is played by me costllan and wany.. we need to step on any of the dots that is shine red.. then we were busy stepping and using all our strengthen on that... we split the dots and i need to step three of the dots.. haha.. then very fun lah.. we got a perfect score of 100% accuracy.. three ppl leh..!.. and 20 rewards points.. woohoo.. IN MY CARD!.. coz i paid for the game mah.. :))

then we go play daetona..wah.. it's so good drifting successfully in the road.. this car racing game.. although i didn't win.. but i have improved.. woohoo.. i drifted my car untill very nice.. lesser banging on to the wall.. so impressed at myself.. !

then i played the basketball shooting game.. with wany.. gotten a score of less than 100.. .but got the techniques to aim low and shoot low.. haha.. :) after that.. yuanh planning to get one toy from the machine for wany.. then he tried.. but the hanger is too loose.. then the toy that he wanted all dropped down back to the base.. after 4 attempts.. he gotten 10 sweets loh.. erm.. what i can say is that the machine is unfair de bah.. haha..

1200-1230: we went shopping around the basement and found alot of great food.. smell so nice.. but i am not hungry.. that's y i didn't eat.. some of them tabao chicken sticks.. haha.. the smell is heavenly good lo..but thank God.. i resist myself from the food temptation!!

1230-1245: we took bus 293 and reach uncle's A1 bubble tea.. from sem starts onwards.. i have not been there since then loh.. really miss uncle wide smile and his lame jokes.. without disappointment.. today he told us somemore.. what F1 joke lah.. u noe the juice machine right?.. got the sound right?.. he said is the F1 engine.. then the cover of the machine is the door of the F1 car door.. i was like.. oh no!.. since when did uncle become so lame..

i told siyun.. i really scare.. 30 years later.. i will become like that leh.. given my lameness now.. oh no... better pray i will not be as lame or lamer than him.. lolz..

1245-0100: went back for BIS lesson..

0105: 0345: BIS lesson..ms rita woo is a good tutor though.. she taught very detail.. then for tutorial.. she get us to share our answers in grps.. which is a good idea lah.. everyone listens and copied not like last time ms cheng lesson.. moreover.. ms woo is more strict in the lab usages.. like no drinks and foods means no drinks and foods.. then she still monitor every of our com to see whether we are really doing our lab or not.. abit scary hor!.. but good lah.. i found out how crystal reports works mostly on my own.. very proud of myself.. haha..

0405- 0550: FOI lesson.. ms eelin is playing mood swings again.. i dunno what happen to her lah.. when we come in to the tutorial room.. she already very tired liao.. then still say some nonsense that we dunno la.. whole class blur blur de.. then teaching that time.. wierd wierd de.. but i have lots of fun lah.. good lah.. i love calculations.. this tutorial focus some on calculations.. but today's figures abit too much.. 2 foolscaps full of figures.. i see untill i blur liao.. still need to copy figure by figure.. :(..

0600-0625: Flavours slacking time with GC clique.. i was suaning lz for her sillyness and etcs.. so bad hor?.. i guess that is becoz i finally suan dao someone liao.. i am so happy.. sometimes i dunno why.. my mind today juz very alert.. i can immediately twist the words around and make a laugh out of it.. haha.. very funny.. i myself also shocked at myself liao.. haha..

0630-0729: GC mock test.. the MCQ was abit tricky.. but the whole paper is manageable lah.. i cancelled alot of answers and rewrite some more relevant de.. haha.. hope it works.. i spend almost 1 hour doing that where the lecture is only left with 6ppl.. i got out of the lecture since i have completed the checking of my work.. 1 min before the paper ends.. haha..

0750-0850: after the test, the whole GC clique, jon, me, costllan, shuxian, lz, joyce, guocheng, weizhi, gabreil, wany and yuanh went to subway at CPF building there for a dinner.. wah..11 ppl leh. how to find seats?.. really really amazingly.. when we reach the exit/entrance of subway.. and we really so lucky that we found seats from ppl who juz ate finish.. a whole grp like us also..haha.. i ordered the cheapest sandwich.. veggie de.. it's $3.90.. then with a set meal.. the sandwich is really really very nice.. coz it's toast with cheese then the fresh lettuces.. OH!.. i really want to eat again.. this time around with xiuy.. coz jon and i owe her liao.. haha..one more thing. .the cookies that came late.. wah.. it's so yummy and soft.. the textures.. wah... my saliva all drops liao..haha..

0900-1000: after the meal, we went separate ways.. jon and i took bus 72 home.. haha.. we talked and laughed all the way.. didn't slp as usual.. haha.. guess 2 of us really can have alot of things to say de bah.. almost everyday go home together yet still have so much things to say and LAUGH.. haha..

today i laughed the most de loh.. in this particular month, i laughed the most for today.. haha.. i thank everyone for caring about me.. knowing that i meet some problems.. you all will come to spread your love to me.. i am really grateful for that.. i appreciated that the most.. thanks..
thank claudia, xiuying, fathinah, costllan and those who read my blog but didn't commented.. thanks.. i noe you all will be there for me.. i need that.. and i already have that..

i will continue to move on de.. i won't give up.. cause i know that i will win no matter what.. i will overcome every situations and setbacks and circumstances.. i am who i am.. i am law chee meng. Jim :)

Shocking

Shocking
Sometimes i wonder why i muz go around pleasing ppl.. making ppl happy.. or whatsoever.. ya.. i am angered by someone.. believers.. non-believers.. i mean we muz really find the one who we can really works well with for our projects mah..

HER words in her blog really hurt me lah.. i dunno lah.. 2 days back i was like caring for her.. asking her what i can help her mah.. do she need a chat or what.. and this is how she face and react to this situation..

i mean..

i run out of words.. juz now Jon asked me go her blog see.. said what she was disappointed with me or whatsoever.. i told him where got.. this afternn she is alright ah.. she even give me a smile and told me she respect every decision that i made and what...

2 days back i was worried for her.. she off her hp.. i sent her a 3 sms long msg hope she can get less troubled over a problem that i dunno.. but now.. come to think.. it is this problem that she is upset about..

i dunno what's her mood when she write that post lah.. angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. it really made me very upset that.. very upset.. i dunno how i can finish my FOI.. one problem after another.. i guess i shld stop grping with her..

from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.. i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. i guess i shld call her someday.. dun wish to let this resentment continue to..

but i am really shocked at that post lah.. maybe she said reflect at what she wrote bah..

i think what i can do now is to... follow what andy preached today.. follow the steps.. first up.. apologised to her.. i guess that's what i shld do now bah.. i noe that's difficult.. but i will try..

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 2

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 2
Some of the texts are extracted from my trip report.. haha.. spend some time reading my trip details bah.. dun worry.. there are pictures uploaded..

"Let us flip through the book of memories and flashed back the past encounters and experiences of my stay in London and Paris. Below are some of my more memorable incidents and events of occurrences.

London (Day 1-4)
Our Tour Guide: Mr Gram!.. Who is Ms Kilogram?.. that's our first response.. but we didn't ask him lah.. lolz..:)

Our coach passed by this TESCO supermarket is like our NTUC in Singapore

The hotel that we live in.. Ashlee Hotel.. very cosy.. love their service and attitude of serving. hehez.. will go back to there to stay if i ever visit London again.. it's juz 5mins walk to their MRT (tube) --> Paddington Station!


One random Red building (bottom left)


london eye *(top right corner) and other siteseeing..

The Tube station and complex network

Paris (Day 5-6)
Effiel Tower in mid afternoon.. look carefully.. u saw a Indian/African carrying alot of stuffs at the right of the pics right?.. actually.. he is one of the buskers that goes round the compound to ask tourists and everyone.. to sell away his sourvenirs.. keychains.. watches.. lots lots lots.. and he is not that only one.. tha'ts more than 20 selling the same one.. they will keep pester you around to buy their stuffs.. that's y i keep avoiding them.. haha..

and it's not legal for them to sell in this way.. but it's not illegal to buy from them.. but overall.. we, tourists earned sometimes and they earned their profits though.. one thing i 1 to mention is that.. at our last day of trip.. a policeman came.. and every of this ppl run away.. escaping.. they didn't even care about the roads and the cars. .juz dashed across.. scared been caught by the policeman.. and that hide and seek plays on..

An unforgettable encounter
After the photo-shooting session with the Eiffel Tower in the afternoon on our first day of Paris, Jonathan, Guo Cheng and I decided to go buy some drinks since we were very thirsty. When it is about our turn to be served, the shop helper didn’t serve us, instead they serve others that are beside us. In the end, we underestimated the prices of coke to mineral water since all the names on the signboard are written in French, even the prices. hai paid for the same price drinking the "gold" made COKE EURO $2.50... means $5 per can.. FAINT!

Thomson Reuters
Straight away after we landed Paris through Eurostar.. we proceed to Thomson Reuters by our coach.. the speaker for one of the presentation is called Adrian -- i RMB his AH AH AH.. always!! From the way he speaks, we can know that he does not practice English often and when you heard him communicate French to his colleagues, he seems so comfortable and relax. During the presentation, he tried to speak in proper English but maybe due to lack of thoughts of what to show to us, he often runs speechlessly with the “ah~ah~ah” non-stop. I can see from his expression, he is trying to pronounce the English properly but really his accent was too heavy for us to catch what he is trying to imply. I guess I can understand him better since I have brother-in-law who also has a strong accent. I caught what he is trying to say faster than my other friends:)

Paris Metrolopis (MRT) and transport system and ticket entrance

Bank of England Museum
Punctuality does counts, and a lot in London. On the following day after lunch, due to the peak lunch hour, we were late at for our second itinerary of the day, the Bank of England Museum. If it was not that some of us want to go for a second helping, and the rest of us waiting for them laterally to finish their second meal and rushing them too, I do not think we will be late. To sum it up, we were late, by almost 20minutes.

In Singapore, this lateness can be tolerated, but in London, it’s an outright NO. Ms Lina’s scolding was really like a wake up call to most of us, telling us that, “In London, the people here are very punctual, you know what, the management here (Museum) has the rights to shut the door since we are late. Do you know that?”

I perfectly understand how she feels, we, as a traveling group, representing Temasek Polytechnic, if most of the students there were late. How will the people in London thought of us as Singaporeans Youths? Normal people will surely thinks that Singaporeans must be always late for meeting like this. This lateness did not just impact the whole flow of museum site seeing, but it has adversely and impacted the way people will think of us as a Singaporean. "


Paris Cruise around Central of Paris (night siteseeing)
That night was my happiest night.. i am so touched by what i see.. all those buildings and i teared becoz i finally let out of all the worries and sorrows out liao.. the wind was blowing on me.. seeing Paris wonderful scenery.. i sometimes wonder.. why i should i worried about all those.. isn't such simple thing like viewing a siteseeing better than anything?.. then i realise.. everything can be view in a very easy manner.. it's juz how you face it only.. !

when the cruise go through this underbridge.. some of the passengers including me will shout on top to the bridge.. it's like exhalting all your troubled out.. and no one cares at that point of the moments cause it's echos.. so u juz shout.. and you can get that sense of freedom there.. i really cherish the moments.. shouting with jonathan.. and.. have fun with the ladies.. haha.. wanying de "Cheng-ge" joke really funny.. at that point of time.. everyone was in very high spirit although all of us was very cold and tired.. coz long day mah.. but.. we survived though..

2ND OF Paris!... DISNEYLAND PARK!!.. woohoo.. i so so ENJOY it.. it's amazingly FUN.. i 1st time try out the ROLLAR COASTER... it's so SO.. shiok.. that's really my BREAKTHOUGH.. that sense of achievement is better than presentation that time.. i really tears after i survive for the ride.. love it!!

Evening shot with Effiel Tower.. one of my fren commented that i was laying on top of the tower sleeping.. lol..
Last dinner.. Golden fries.. marinated chicken cubes and yellow rice with LOTSLOTS of salad and dessert is APPLE PIE..!!


Sunrise arond 6.50am near Malaysia-SG sky shot on the plane thanks to Shuxian for her these 2 photos..!