Wednesday, January 28, 2009

today



things DOES not went on smoothly today. with alot of things happened.

only some smooth ones.
  • manage to take every buses to/back to our destinations during break and after school.
  • clique's yu sheng lou hei
  • the movie "love matters"
  • release of QSM assignment part 1 report
now was having very strong slight headache. guess i stay too long in the shower room. there has a big 20mins rain there. but i manage to survive.. although now feeling very unwell..

Emotional breakdown and a series of great headaches follows..

Emotional breakdown and a series of great headaches follows..

Tired. tired of been called gay.

been caught flirt. attending FIVE GALS AT the same time..

been popular isn't my fault. why must everyone picks on me. how i wish i can juz get out of everything and isolate myself from everyone. isn't it the best solution..

tired of been accused of nothing i have done before

tired of been accused of watching cyber sex and pornography

tired of been crowned as the sex master

tired of been said of rapping the gays...

tired.. of been accused of ALL those YELLOW stuff..

IT WAS NOT THE FIRST TIME.

IT WON'T BE THE LAST TIME.

IT CAN'T BE THE LAST TIME.

AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

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just can't i be.

the Jim that i used to be?

the cheemeng that most friends will noe.

the positive thinking attitude.

the good reputation and image

guess i really understand how Gabriel feels. felt sorry for him too..

not to neglect i have added salt to his wounds too..

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each and every sentences pierce through my heart like a sharp blade..

seeing my best friends saying.. and my good friends standing there laughing.. watching the good show.

well.. wat i can i say?

or i SHOULD say how i can react to stop?

no! i CAN'T

they just keep rubbing and rubbing..on the cut wounds that is going to recover..
causing more wounds and cuts.. more serious one..

all those making fun of my names. my surname.. my given name from my parents..

1st few times i will laugh...

next few times i can tolerant

the very last times i will denied

the last time i will....

i dunno what will i do..

i guess i underestimate myself.

underestimate my level of tolerance..

underestimate my heart..

overestimate my brain..

give me some time and i will cool down.

i..

i know..

i will NEED to cool down if not i will do SOMETHING silly again.

who knows? maybe next time round you will not see me again..

i will not be sitting/standing beside you anymore?

or i will just disappear from every single ones' world.

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to all other frens out there:
NOTICE: IF I SUDDENLY DIDN'T CONTACT YOU. PLEASE GIVE ME SOME TIME TO COOL DOWN. I MIGHT CANCEL ANY MEETING/ GATHERING WITHOUT WARNING.

NEXT TIME U SEE ME, I WILL BE BETTER. I WILL. DEFINITELY.

WITH GOD. I CAN OVERCOME EVERYTHING THRU HIM TO STRENGTHEN ME.]

guess i can ONLY pin ON to Him only. PRAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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Saturday, January 17, 2009

Appreciation for my 19th birthday

This week is really the blessing week, I have received so much present.. even after my birthday itself.

Tue 13/1
1) White Jacket (COOL): From Wan Ying, Yuan Hong, Jonathan, Costllan, Kai Zhou, Si Jia, Si Yun, Guo Cheng, Mei Wei.

2) "Piggy bank" and "pressing sound recording sound PINK pig": From Hariyani, Huan Yi, Jasmine Lim, Jasmine Chow.

3) Wallet: From Zhi Yuan (will used it when i am working. coz it's a formal wallet)

Wed 14/1
1) Black "Extra Fit" Tee with Fake Suspenders: From Shu Xian and Li Zhen
2) G2000 Blue strips collared formal long sleeved shirt and Blue checked tie: From My elder sis and Spencer, my sister in law.

Thu 15/1
1) Yuki Yaki Japanese Steamboat BBQ - Ice cream buffet: Dine with Say Haow and Hariyani
2) Cute little "wu ying liang ping" Japanese - lemon flavour soap: From Say Haow

Fri 16/1
1) TCC Supper TREAT with cheese cake and black forest cake and Iced Cappaciuno for my share: From My elder sis and Spencer, my sister in law.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

唐禹哲 - 情报

this song is FULL of attitude.. and i like the GROOVE!..

唐禹哲
- 情报

歌词:
香槟唤醒费洛蒙的细胞
我浑身感觉连上信号
顺从直觉逼近的感召
理智 SHUT DOWN 在你的轻笑

只要你知道 把野兽关好
透露要刚好 让暧昧肆虐
不灭火也不愿逃跑

我愿 出卖 自己 把情报给你
无情 热情 报备你决定
传递 无私 去你的国境
让爱 狂烧 到证据一干二净

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

Rap:
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
不进不退喜欢你
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step one step one step

拿捏这个轻吻什麽心态
你的姿态藏什麽打算
情报不是白吃的午餐
也许我们有人不简单

只要你知道 把野兽关好
透露要刚好 让暧昧肆虐
不灭火也不愿逃跑

我愿 出卖 自己 把情报给你
无情 热情 报备你决定
传递 无私 去你的国境
让爱 狂烧 到证据一干二净
you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

Rap:one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
不进不退喜欢你
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase da beat
one step two step chase

我愿 出卖 良心 身份都抛弃
成为 沉迷 爱的窃聽器
理性 想起 警报前抱紧 要爱
豁尽 后悔前一干二净

出卖 自己 把情报给你
无情 热情 都被你决定
传递 无私 去你的国境
让爱 狂烧 到证据一干二净

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

you are mine you are mine
you are mine you are mine baby

half an hour after my birthday

19 liao loh! more burden and more things need to bear liao. Just want to appreciate the following..

Thanks for the sms FROM
Sengyap, Zhi Yuan, Victoria, Yun Ting, Jeanne, Xiu Ying, Shu Xian, Costllan, Aunt, Claudia, (10)
Si Hui, William, 3rd Sister, Michelle, Euzanne, 2nd Sister, Wei Zhi, Kai Bin, Andy, Si Yun, (20)
Say Haow, Kai Zhou, Eugene, Joseph, Cheryl, Zhi Yun
(WOW. close to 30 ppl for the whole day.. FAINT.. thanks!!)

Msn msg from Si Kai AND Call msg from Yuan Hong and Wan Ying (can hear her voice), not to forget my Personal greetings from my family..:)

Hongbaos from
Birthday presents, meals and CAKES! (Order of appearance)
  • Black Dog tag with my name engraved and greeting card (Victoria)
  • "JJ" Black Hat with checkers lining (E98)
  • Zha Cha worth $79.90 at Serangoon Coffee Shop (Family)
  • Pizza Hut on dutch Lunch AND Calvin Klein Men's Perfume (Xiu Ying, Ah Kai, Zhi Yuan, Zhi Yun)
  • Brownie cake from Polar (Xiu Ying, Zhi Yun, Jonathan, Costllan)
  • Ajisan dinner treating AND long cartoon cake from Polar (You Hock and Glisten inc.- Claudia, Jeanne, Yun Ting)
  • Superman Black Leather Belt and greeting collage (You Hock and Glisten inc.)
  • BreakTalk blackforest cake (Family)
Thanks!! Thanks!! Thanks!!

Monday, January 12, 2009

That's extreme fast!

That's extreme fast!
for birthday wishes.

wow, it's like within the +- of 12 midnight. i have already receive this sms/msn...
Before 12
Samy @ 10+ (msn)
Sengyap @ 2351
ZhiYuan @ 2359 (miscount..)

Sharpers @ 0000 (basic on million seconds difference)
1st: Victoria
2nd: Yunting
3rd: Ah Kai (msn)

Jeanne @ 0001
XiuYing @ 0002
ShuXian @ 0003
my elder sister @ 0011
my sister in law @ 0031
costllan @ 0038

Sunday, January 4, 2009

楊奇煜 - Make Me a Fool

Present thoughts at present time. dId she Make me a FOOl?

楊奇煜 - Make Me a Fool

詞:小煜 曲:小煜

請你聽聽這是我想念的聲音
如果妳還記得那年的冬季
那件大衣口袋的溫暖甜蜜
有我們握愛的手心

*計算不出曾經擁抱妳的距離
也許我把自己想的太聰明
原來愛情需要一點點的空氣
天下著雨 有人等著天放晴

#You Make Me A Fool
我承認我對愛是有點頑固 那是因為我很在乎
妳仰角看我哭 難道妳就這樣退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假裝看不見妳給的答覆 對我來說都不算數
幸福早已迷路 不知不覺我沒退路
傻的辛苦

Repeat * , #

妳可說我傻的可以
妳可說我還沒放棄
想念會讓人期待著奇蹟

Repeat #

Thursday, January 1, 2009

the month of January

WOOHOO! happy new year!..

THIS is my plan for this month

2/1/09 fri: Security Analysis Project Deadline, part 1 submission

3/1 sat:
1) Lunch at Marina Mandarin, Dim Sum ala carte @ 1200
2) ITPM Communication Session @ 1730

4/1 sun:
1) Sun Service
2) Wu Yue Tian "Ni Bu Shi Zhen Zheng de Kuai Le, xin ge Bao Gan Hui", Mayday outdoor concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium Green

9/1 fri: Openhouse day 2 (1230- 1730)

10/1 sat:
1) Openhouse day 3 (0930 - 1630)
2) Cg birthday mini celebration and fellowship dinner

11/1 sun:
1) Chinatown new year shopping with mum (morning)
2) Family Birthday Dinner (Zha Cha)

12/1 mon: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE MENG
1) Glisten. inc birthday dinner

16-18/1 fri- sun: chalet!!

25/1 sun: CNY's eve
26/1-27/1: CNY!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!