Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Anger and Frustrated

Anger and Frustrated

""Cut out the COM wires and dun let him use.""

I guess i will rmb this for a period of time de bah.. i really REALLY can't stand my sister.. the 2nd one liao.. (if u have been a good audience, u will know that i am not in VERY good terms with her..since that time.. go back to the older posts either end of last year to see bah)

i was pissed off by her words and her tone..

after dinner around 10.35pm..i asked her nicely "can i use the com at 11pm (i give her 25more mins to use.. even though i need to send yuanhong that document by 11pm.. some lee-ways..)

she agreed.. later my mum came in and ask her nicely (didn't noe i ask her liao).. to let me use the com at 11pm.. then SHE PISSED off..

SIS: this com i can't use ah (in a very harsh tone to "tell" my mum)
MUM: ~~~speechless~~~
Me: (can't take it anymore) can.. you use loh.. i slp first, tml morning then use
SIS: I AM NOT TALKING TO YOU
Me: Yes. You are REFERREING TO ME
SIS: (to my mum) tHen what if ""Cut out the COM wires and dun let him use.""
MUM: ~~~speechless~~~
Me: (sacrastic) then i go my fren's hse do the project loh.. nvm
SIS: YOU KNOW I AM NOT REFERRING TO YOU
Me: (Pissed to the top-- "Dump" off the magazine and slam slightly harder on one of the bedroom door and go shower to "COOL" myself down)

I know she is not trying to say abt me.. but what i mean is that.. can't she AT LEAST treat my mum NICELY.. i mean.. she WAS BORN becoz of my mum leh.. I totally give up on that..

my aunt keep praising her on her change of attitude throughout this couple of years, now i dun think so loh.. a daughter that cannot even respect her mum, won't be even said to be a woman of 29 years old loh..

i mean PLEASE LOH.. 29 liao leh.. i know that she is angry abt mum keep having bias on me.. i mean i really got project and deadline is like.. 1 n 1/2 days time.. can't she give a night for me to finish my project.. she is juz playing plain annoyed..

what unfair? what she is been ill-treated.. she keep telling mum, grandma, aunt, dad that she is been treated unfair.. i mean FOR GOD SAKE.. can't she has eyes to SEE meh.. this few years.. didn't they shower their love to her.. providing care and concern and the upmost LOVE to her.. becoz of me been the youngest child.. getting abit more care than her.. she juz F**k Up..

oh please loh.. I am just 18 years old.. i guess her math sure fail liao.. wonder how she can get an accounting job.. she is more than 10 years older than me.. and yet.. she is unpleased about this treatment.. oh.. totally CAN'T tahan liao...

enough of swearing and cursing.. i need to do my CASH project research liao..
ciao

Sunday, June 22, 2008

2 things to share..

2 things to share.. First thing.. i discovered when i was on the way home this evening that... sometimes we can have a brand new feeling/or thoughts if we look at an incident or an event at different point of view.. today i tried it. i slowed down my walking pace instead of walking very fast home (which i usually did== my foot hurts).. i discovered that.. wow.. THE winds is blowing softly on me.. the weather was great at that time. i have a great meal.. (next time tell u what i eat.. ).. but really.. i did look at the things i usually dun even bother at. like the puddle of water on the leaf etcs.. haha..

Second thing is that finally.. all my this week problems have been settled down.. granny is getting better already.. i and my fren frenshp went back to normal.. my fren's relationship prob seems settled liao..
now only left my projects deadlines.. and one more thing..
Finanical needs.. dunno what happen lah.. my parents juz can't forked out enough cash now to pay the school fees which is due tml.. hai.. then now borrow from my 2nd sis.. she seems upset.. i am wondering where did the money that is been saved regularly in my GIRO account.. where did it gone to.. hai.. i shall not say much... :(

Saturday, June 21, 2008

就算是整个世界把我抛弃
Even though the whole world turns me down
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
But i still have the rights to choose to be happy or sad
所以我说就让他去 So i juz let him go
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
I know that when tides are low, there soon will be tides that are high
有什么了不起 Nothing BIG deal about.

This chrous is from one track of MayDay's album.. ytd was singing k-box with sengyap.. was feeling very VERY down.. due to some reasons.. then when i happens to pick this song and sing.. WAH.. this chrous above is exactly what i been through now..

I sang and sang.. untill the 2nd part of the song.. i tears.. sengyap didn't noe.. and he sang with me.. really thanks him for his backup voice.. juz like an echo to keep me from been down..

Sometimes i wonder why there must be ups and downs in lives... for us humans to experiences.. this is my FIRST down.. juz get over a relationship problem that is not mine.. and now.. frienship problems.. family problems.. all jumbled up together.. i dun even have the mind to study for CASH quiz and to do my projects.. wat went wrong with me.. Am i too emotional?.. i am really upset and angry at myself.. sometimes i wonder is this my weakness?..

I guess i just need to face this?.. no point avoiding and escaping right?.. wei wo jia you bah (Cheer for me kay?).. thanks:)

take care everyone

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Posts for April 2008

Posts for April 2008
just a short brief of what happen in April 2008.. dun worry more pics than words.. haha..
Actually.. i did want to post in April straight after my camps.. luckily i saved my thoughts in Microsoft Word instead.. haha.. here you go..
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Almost 1 month since never blog liao.. Did you all miss me? I really have a great marvelous fun in the month April.. let me tell you why..

2nd apr- 4th apr: went to OLTC (Orientation Leadership Training Camp). Hmm.. Know and meet a lot a lot of new friends. My empire name is called Poseidon, The sea of God. Wow.. And tell you what our specialty is that we don’t have a great leader like Zen or Darren, so everyone needs to plays apart to lead the group. Some more our AGL Yuan Long is so busy with his main comm and as the chairman and the overall in charge of this camp, he need to make sure that the camp activities runs smoothly and good. As such, he seldom has time to spend with us. Luckily another of our AGL, Jolene is very motivated in cheering us up to do stuff.

I guess the breakthrough is at the night of first day, where we were introduced by Adeline to play “Ti-ti-tu” because we have a lot of time to waste. It’s a miracle game to make everyone wake up from tiredness. Yes, I mean literally wake up. This game really needs a lot of concentration... (below description can skip (opt.)

As a group, a person will be selected to start the game. He will act his action by using his index and middle fingers for both hands and twist them into a cross to spin and said “ti-ti” constantly. His partners that are beside him will also do their actions by squeezing their palms into a “five stone” shape and point to the middleman.

The middleman will then “Tune” another person in the group. He can be the one beside him or opposite, any person will do. The person who gotten the “tune” will then twist his fingers and act out what the middleman suppose to do. His partners beside will also need to act out what they need to do. This game is about fast thinking and Concentrate!

**But really OLTC is really an event that SHAPES me to who i am now, MORE OPEN, MORE ACTIVE, MORE SOCIALABLE, MORE WILLING TO TAKE INITIATIVE..MOST IMPT: MORE YELLOW..LOL.. I AM MORE DARING TO DO THINGS I WON'T SUPPOSE TO DO LAST TIME.. LOL.. i LOVE POSEIDON, I love all the POSEIDIANS.. !
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16 apr- 18 apr: These 3 days went for Week 0 Orientation, was been distributed to lead C205, WOOHOO.. got huifen, jingyi and Mervin to pei me.. love Mervin.. always so funny de.. haha.. jingyi is all-rounder, huifen is the quiet but willing to do work type, me ah.. i am who i am loh..

Day 2: The Flour and Apple Station.. C205 with me and huifen..:)

Day 3: Whole C205 with the 4 OLs.. haha.. so casual~~



Day 3: GET (Game and Entertainment Technology) Lecture Threate 11 with most of the OLs that were present and LT heads:)

love my C205 students.. till now.. we still will maintain contacts.. hope this will last... really look forward to next year Orientation.. ps: the Night walk.. i did one of the most memorable thing: to act as a table "knocking"... i horrified myself too.. but really.. to act as "ghost" is FUNNIER than to be scared by "ghost".. lol:)

View on relationship dated 27/5/08

...It all started when i was sitting in bus 43 on my way to meet my frens at singapore post on 27/5/08.. i immediately written down my feelings and thought on a piece of paper i have on that point time. here is what i have written:

"Just now sitting infront of me is a young couple. I bet they must be in secondary school. They look so young. They seem very cheerful (happy), immerse in the romance (bah).. Sometimes i wonder where is my Miss Right. How i wish that I can HAVE HER, HUG HER. Put my long arms on her shoulder and let her lie on my chest. How I wish I can MAKE HER LAUGH, STOP HER TEARS.

When will this moment comes? I keep on asking myself this... NOT that I dun have the finance to do so. I rmb few months down this current post, I have written another one about relationship. It's not that... (I somehow contradicts myself now V.S. then). I think is that I dun have the courage to ask her.. ask her myself *(Will you be my stead) .. HAI! "

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 1

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 1
wow.. wow.. wow.. finally have the time to post my blog already.. i have so much to say.. so much to tell.. these 2 months of my non- period of blogging really can prove that i have really been very stressed on my project and i juz really dun feel like blogging and put down some notes.. tml i will briefly mention some events that happens from april to june the first week..

so basically.. the most impt thing is the London-Paris Study Trip lah, as the name mention, the word Study.. Means no shopping no anything.. just plain study right? but YOU ARE WRONG.. later i will tell you why.. i will keep this short.. coz i dun 1 every1 reading this to feel draggy and long winded.

SAT June 7: Depart with Frens and say goodbyes to sayhaow and hariyani.. really thank them to come all the way.. (although hari a part is to send huan yi off.. lol).
That time was my first time taking a flight.. SIA flight somemore for 13 hours..OH NO.. tell you what.. i am totally amazed by everything.. the air stewards' services, the wide selections of movies, music and drama. AND for my most impt thing.. the GREAT FOOD served.. oh.. tell you what.. i love everything that's on the serving tray.. YUMMY!! but the ear pressure during the landing.. makes my impression on airplanes abit.. u noe.. disgusted.. i mean.. the pressure was so great that.. i keep on praying and closing my eyes to wait for the pressure to gone like what Jon said.. the ears like 1 to pump out like that..

when reach London is abt 8pm.. and the sky is still like evening like that.. and the weather is AIR-CONDITIONAL type.. haha.. when i first step out of the airport, the FIRST thing i ask is the exit air-con-ed.. then when i walked even further with my luggage.. nope.. i can feel it's as cold.. :)

Dinner was in the pub..salad, spaghetti, cake.. came in a big serving.. WAH.. that was my first time wasting food.. so guilty..SO MUCH FOOD somemore.. HAI.. after that we went back to our hotel called Ashley Hotel for our room check in.. the room was sufficient for 3 big guys, US, to sleep on our individual bed and that's a small tiny washroom with a shower in it.. which i think it's already quite good liao.. given this package.. got a television and a cupboard somemore.. no need aircon coz outside the wind can blow in and cool the room, bed is so comfortable.. Jon said when he juz laid on the bed, he want to slp instantly liao.. wah..!
and i slp the latest coz i need to write a diary (which what i am holding on now..).. till 2+am.

Monday, June 2, 2008

張敬軒 - 吻得太逼真 (Traditional Chinese)

張敬軒 - 吻得太逼真

作曲:Vincent Chow
填詞:Antonio Chen陳耀川
編曲:Gary Tong

無論怎麽叫我都覺得虛僞
陪伴那麽久你說是受罪
從前到現在當我是誰
你這花心蝴蝶

昨夜陪你醉
唱到我心碎你竟說我和你不配
完全忘記往日
爲何能與我徹夜纏綿

和你吻吻吻吻吻吻你吻得太逼真
讓我把虛情假意當作最真心的親吻
怪自己來不及區分你對我是酷愛是敷衍

我想吻吻吻吻吻我該怎麽脫身
你卻說花花世界不必當真
多麽傷人讓我愛上多情的紅唇

拿什麽心腸面對我的生冷
能不能想一想你讓我多傷
你的愛就像完美毒藥
對手的場地依然漂亮

不敢想曾與你渡過多少真實的晚上
一轉眼熱戀後身受重傷

和你吻吻吻吻吻吻你吻得太逼真
讓我把虛情假意當作最真心的親吻
怪自己來不及區分你對我是酷愛是敷衍

我想吻吻吻吻吻我該怎麽脫身
你卻說花花世界不必當真
多麽傷人讓我愛上多情的紅唇

深淵萬丈你把我的愛用盡後丟棄荒野埋葬
你犯的罪裝沒人知道
用什麽證明你的親吻真的殘忍

和你吻吻吻吻吻吻你吻得太逼真
讓我把虛情假意當作最真心的親吻
怪自己來不及區分
你對我是酷愛是敷衍

我想吻吻吻吻吻我該怎麽脫身
你卻說花花世界不必當真
多麽傷人讓我愛上多情的紅唇