Sunday, April 23, 2006

lied

haiz... really dunno y i did that to her again...sad sad...my this new fren 1 me to help him check whether that's the truth or nt..then sort of tell me to go call her la...the 1st 1 is "conference" wifout his voice la...then i swear that 2nd 1 is i ownself call de...after he told me to do so la...yup...is kind of freaky whn ask me to call her...even myself also shiver whn calling her...dunno y..maybe mental block...or psycholocial bah...i dunno...it had been mths since i call her..n that 1st call lasted more than 5mins...surprisingly...but i really feel guilty abt that..

i am been forced or else i really dun wish to call her personally liao...is like almost 1/2 a yr liao..wat is past is past liao mah...n 4 him n her..if i was a given a choice..i will nt 1 to noe so much de...REALLY..the more u noe...the more u became sad...from that time on 1 dec..whn i keep silent n all of thm conference...till now...i noe the betraylity la...honestly why muz i help him...juz becoz he is my fren...dunno leh... really noe so much is nt gd de...somemore he talking more of his that relationshp more than me lo...

i dunno she will come view this post or nt...but i 1 to say SORRY to her thru this...n i noe she will hate me de...haiz..wat to do...i am easily been used by others...u ask me go east...i will go east...u ask me go slp..i will go slp...

simply juz 4 frens la...i want every of my frens to be happy...but myself i am nt happy tonite...i think she will be sad that she is been betrayed...n i lied to her...n i dun think i will hv the face anymore to face her le bah...she will be dam angry bah....haiz..

hope that her blogger is working n she can blog bah...write all the fuss n things inside...

as 4 that him...i will nt let he used me again bah...i try...haiz...really dun hv mood to finish my hws liao..dunno how to face her...haiz...let me die bah...i dun 1 to be in nvss anym...so many probs de...

To her: (sorry ah..i noe i am nt suppose to do that...dun ever forgive me...as i won't be able to forgive myself de...sad sad...living in misery...sorry "T-M-T-"'()

tv shows

haha...this many things can say le...haha...this apr i see my shows...coz after step down nth to do mah...go hm watch tv..relax ah..haha...

(2/4/06)(campus superstar finals)...haha...zhiyang win liao...so great...love his music...yong lin also ah...yup...champiom of the sexes is already gd liao...

(3/4/06)(yulebaifenbai--yule100 de JJ fans club)haha...i on sick leave mah...then heng ah...gt catch dao JJ de...haha...so happy to see him...haha...he is like my gor like that...dunno y this mth so like him...especially his concert coming on the 24th of june...hehez...i pei my fren go ...haha...$120 leh....the expensivest de...haha...worth it la...JJ will nt cheat me de....haha...now i am listen to his songs on wmp...haha..my hp gt 5 of his songs....all the phonetones is set his de...dam crazy abt him de...haha..since sec1/pri6 i notice him on tv liao..since then i start to admire his talent liao...he noe how to plays piano...rap...dance.. sing very well...write lyrics n melody..n also b-box...(use mouth to make music)..this 1 new de..h.ah.a..he's very creative...n cool...haha...ok...if i keep typing...the whole blog will be full liao..cannot cannot...muz write others...hha...

(9/4/06)(superband de big jam)...hahah...the accppla is great...maybe mics control nt good bah...the rocks grps...nt gd...then some even out of pitch....so nan ting....haha...

(16/4/06)(yixinyiaixianaixin...sometihng like that bah)...erm...yup...fann wong de sand pieces very beautiful..i luv it...then the zoe tay de india dance...very entertaining...i laugh all the way...

(18/4/06)(yule100 de gary cao n ma yi de lian ai100)...wah this 1 muz say...so romantic lo...tis lovely couple go out together then wah...so ai(4th) mei(1st)...(by yang chen lin)...yup...so xin mu...gary sings the songs...my fav de songs..to ma yi..then she very touch..i also very touch lo...haha...even my classmates the other day also gt say..that cao ge de prog very nice leh...ya lo...a man noe how to sing..play piano...think of tricks to entertain the lady..is sad that he is soft spoken like me la...haha...or else he surely got more ppl love him de...haha..but heaven is fair de la....he hv great range of voice...yup...1st time listen de songs sent by yhock...i noe wah...so hao ting liao..then ya lo..

(22/4/06)(xianjianqixiazhuan)this tv serial make my sat nite sad....wah..the lead role all died liao..so sad....i cried also leh...y muz like that arrange...so much the storyline...can't type so long...hha....that;s all bah....hand suan liao....haha

Saturday, April 22, 2006

april rain

wah....almost a month i have nt blog liao...haha...forget my another blog de passwd n username liao...this blog de...is i heng heng got it de...haha...this apr happened so much things...wah...how to start nei...i also dunno...1st wk of apr..i am verrrry busy wif my sch 50th yr golden jubilee..although quite stres..but i really enjoy it...it really allow me to have this precious chance to mingle wif all my juniors....sec3 gt zuming..donut..kianhong..and 4 sec2...steven..gaven...kevin...etcs..sec1 gt many many...dunno their names...yet within this small waiting room...they noe my face n i also noe them liao...haha...they all (secc1--4) so playful de...haha..play all sort of games de...haha...anyw...this is my last event be4 i step down...so ke xi....wah...gt a bit sad la...that week...like after the event of the week...i am like..like something lack of missing like that...haha...but get over liao...now...

anyw juz to add...this mth keeps raining...dunno why....monsoon season bah...haha...i am so geography liao..from agriculture to natual vegetation...haha..the tests of this wk...my heart also rain...haha...somehow i feel very lonely...frens all busy with their own stuffs... left i walking walking n walking...somehow i wish i could throw away the umbrella n walk in the rain..but i can't...hhaha...coz exams are around de corner..btw these few weeks also many ppl sick...kb gt flu...okay liao..qingxiang gt fever bah..then dunno y injured...but i think now okay liao bah...then hengwai claudia n samuel all gt sick..my cough also haven;t recover...like going to sore thraot again..keep drinking water....scare sore again...especially tihs impt exam period

as 4 her...haha...still like that lo...is like 1mth plus nv get her letter liao..i also dunno 1 to give her mine or nt...scare she mind..n she beside gt so many guys...hongsheng..augustine..haha...mi a bit jealous la...but still also get over liao..haha... sometimes really think if i am given a choice...i will shldn't step into this class de...yup...n without her...i suddenly feel a bit relax or wat la...but her smile means everything la...wed nitez on the speech day...see her so embrassed abt frandy coming back to sch...i noe she still can't forget him la...haha...then i also gt suan her...actually...the 1st time her gal frens tease her..i am also beside la...i dunno y feel a bit jealous 4 few seconds...n later turn into happy liao...i noe she had wait him 4 so long lo...yup...haha...n seeing her embrassed..really fun..haha...but i noe can't overboard la...muz give her face...to go down the "steps"...:P...yup n that day is the 1st day we talk more than 5 sentences in a small grp lo...wah...yup...still gt a bit tense bah...4 we2...we only bye...how was the test..hihi..like that only..4 the past 1 mth...haha...juz basic greetings...haha...i scare she gt someone else in mind liao..i keep telling myself dun think 2 much liao...but the class is so small..n whn i turn to my left i will see her claud zhihui the guys liao...

maybe i think 2 much le bah...shldn't hv think so much de... wat is past is past liao... muz look to the future...put the past in the heart...ghaha...easy say than easy do... muz put that aside mah...haha..or else friday de EL exam n nxt tue de exams how....haha...so much hws this wkend...muz put all the mind into hws...haha...keep myself busy busy...as busy as a bee...wahaha...an idoim!!!