a new challenge coming up...

Status: is only when you are about to leave, then you will realize actually that's what you longed for, that's what you have going through everyday motionlessly and without feeling that...

that is your comfort zone, your shelter. where your friends are, the bonding and chemistry is somehow amazing...

tml will be a new chapter for me... Mset, i... am going to counter and conquer you...!


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Tml... Mset course... yes, a new beginning of my NS life, 2 weeks, 14 days alone with no one i know, i have learn about maintenance and about the vehicle parts...

well, this might be actually my short getaway from the MT line...

away from all those driving.
it's just like taking a break from the busy schedule.

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Actually i am quite proud of myself that, actually i can gotten my confidence back in driving landover, i still rmb, (everytime i drove --> my instructor in KBC will say "Law, have you forgotten how good you drive your landover, can you do this to the 3-Ton as well!"..

that's when i told myself, if the PAST ME, can do it, why the Present ME cannot do it.

that's the wake up call for me.

Really thank God for placing Mr Alan Neo into my life, teaching and refreshing me the procedure of landover, it's just like a human who lose his memory, and he is being taught, step by step how to operate the vehicle. and it's through that i regain my confidence, thank you Mr Neo.

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God, thank you for posting me back to this camp, yes, i admit i had pyschological barrier in driving vehicles again, and it's You, who allow this to happen again, it's you who allow me to regain the confidence to drive again.. thank you.

Officially disarmed himself from the role of an IC

re-course, re-post.. that's maybe is my life.. after so many rounds of pushing around..

can i settle down at my upcoming posting?

will the posting be the last?

can he cope with the driving course?


will i be able to study part time?

can he make it to study officially?

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questions and more questions...
uncertainty and more uncertainty...

this is getting to no where...
the only thing i should and must do is to pray...


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Bye whiskey team,
2 months of cooperation, 1.5 months of teamwork, 2 months of slackness, 2 months of monopoly deals and other random games... pulled the ten of us together into one solid strong team.

and now, it's time to good bye to everyone.. to my 2nd Ic, Joel, "thanks for being there for me when i needed you the most"

and to the rest of my teammates, " thanks for making my 1.5 month of NS, an enjoyable and fulfilling one. All the best to your new posting, definitely we will catch up and meet up soon. JIA YOU! :)"

The team has made me proud, i felt so comfortable mingling around. Even though i will give myself ultimate stress, but each of them will provide me with their best strengths in terms of their capabilities.

I will also like to take this chance to thank the instructors in RRR, "thank you for giving me this chance to realize my potential in leadership, i will miss you, Instructor Zervyn and Oilver."

2 months of leadership, I can say that I have become more initiated to do things, I have to, and I need to. It hasn't been easy since not every time the whole team will be cooperating, but well, there are still a bunch of them to help me... It hasn't been a bed of roses for me, but I am proud of myself that I have overcome the obstacles and true enough, I have rose up to another level of my self-esteem and self-confidence. Thank God for that.

And last but not least, to my buddies, Zhengyu and Khong.

To Zhengyu, "Thanks for chatting with me when i felt totally bored, I have known you better since last time in STC, next time let's meet to eat steaks and buffet together, ok?".

To Khong, "Thanks for entertaining me when I felt lonely and bored, it has been a long while since we have been pulled together since the last phase of SOT... thanks for the accompaniment.. with you, i felt the sense of security, thanks Khong."

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Finally, it's me again, well.. life still move on.. i thought the farewell for Adnan and Yihui will be awful already and right now... i got to say bye to Zhengyu, Khong, Joel and the rest...

I will move on...
I will be strong...

God, strengthen me before I collapse okay?
I have count on you...and I will be always counting on you.

end of BMTC

post no.299...

it's getting to the end of August.. it's the end of my Tekong days..
4 weeks of BMTC training has passed.. at a blink of an eye..
just like how the MOM Temp Surveyor job.. this is fast.. and yet memorable..

dunno why, tonight i felt abit lonely, just like a person who needs someone to talk, but he thinks that no one really cares about him. or should i say, it's when u noe that's someone who cares about u, just that u dun really want to share those to them..

that's the main pt..

eyes closing.. woke up in the early morning at 4am this morning.. it's almost 21 hours.. i guess i better slp now.. mixing up all my bio clock already..

good night everyone.. :)