紀佳松 - 金魚的眼淚

金魚的眼淚

詞：李念和 曲：紀佳松

沒有感覺 就像不曾發生過
沒有記憶 若忘記算什麼
隔著玻璃看著天空
等待水面灑落溫飽的奢求 但愛呢

沒有所謂的我們 就像直線交錯
再多的花朵 擁抱時的感動
瞬間都消失無蹤 時間不如放肆蹉跎
世界想起遺忘重複三秒鐘 愛從不是愛

或許放棄想念沒那麼快

金魚的眼淚 流乾 沒人看得穿
談什麼遺憾
當金魚的眼淚 飄散
困在這循環 到不了大海
都是我活該 
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沒有所謂的我們 就像直線交錯
再多的花朵 擁抱時的感動
瞬間都消失無蹤 時間不如放肆蹉跎
世界想起遺忘重複三秒鐘 愛從不是愛

或許放棄想念沒那麼快

金魚的眼淚 流乾 沒人看得穿
談什麼遺憾
當金魚的眼淚 飄散
困在這循環 到不了大海
都是我活該 

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若氧氣已用完 我掙扎的痛苦 不安 都早已與你無關
絕望卻閉不上眼 眼睜睜悲劇上演 無力抗拒卻已不能重來

What if I just GONE AWAY
沒人看得穿
談什麼遺憾
當金魚的眼淚 飄散
困在這循環 到不了大海
都是我活該 

沒人看得穿
談什麼遺憾
當金魚的眼淚 飄散
困在這循環 到不了大海
都是我活該 
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The eyes of the goldfish is very small.. very difficult to notice.. even if it is crying.. it will be very difficult to tell..

same goes to me.. you won't be seeing me crying...since my tears are all dried, i dun think i need to cry..it will just run down in my heart...

i like the phrase, "What if I just GONE AWAY, 沒人看得穿, 談什麼遺憾 "...
what if i just gone away, will anyone notice? will anyone cares?.. i doubt so...


and this phrase too.. "或許放棄想念沒那麼快" .. maybe the thought of giving up on missing you isn't that fast that i imagine..

金魚的眼淚, 我此刻的心情...

Officially disarmed himself from the role of an IC

re-course, re-post.. that's maybe is my life.. after so many rounds of pushing around..

can i settle down at my upcoming posting?

will the posting be the last?

can he cope with the driving course?


will i be able to study part time?

can he make it to study officially?

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questions and more questions...
uncertainty and more uncertainty...

this is getting to no where...
the only thing i should and must do is to pray...


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Bye whiskey team,
2 months of cooperation, 1.5 months of teamwork, 2 months of slackness, 2 months of monopoly deals and other random games... pulled the ten of us together into one solid strong team.

and now, it's time to good bye to everyone.. to my 2nd Ic, Joel, "thanks for being there for me when i needed you the most"

and to the rest of my teammates, " thanks for making my 1.5 month of NS, an enjoyable and fulfilling one. All the best to your new posting, definitely we will catch up and meet up soon. JIA YOU! :)"

The team has made me proud, i felt so comfortable mingling around. Even though i will give myself ultimate stress, but each of them will provide me with their best strengths in terms of their capabilities.

I will also like to take this chance to thank the instructors in RRR, "thank you for giving me this chance to realize my potential in leadership, i will miss you, Instructor Zervyn and Oilver."

2 months of leadership, I can say that I have become more initiated to do things, I have to, and I need to. It hasn't been easy since not every time the whole team will be cooperating, but well, there are still a bunch of them to help me... It hasn't been a bed of roses for me, but I am proud of myself that I have overcome the obstacles and true enough, I have rose up to another level of my self-esteem and self-confidence. Thank God for that.

And last but not least, to my buddies, Zhengyu and Khong.

To Zhengyu, "Thanks for chatting with me when i felt totally bored, I have known you better since last time in STC, next time let's meet to eat steaks and buffet together, ok?".

To Khong, "Thanks for entertaining me when I felt lonely and bored, it has been a long while since we have been pulled together since the last phase of SOT... thanks for the accompaniment.. with you, i felt the sense of security, thanks Khong."

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Finally, it's me again, well.. life still move on.. i thought the farewell for Adnan and Yihui will be awful already and right now... i got to say bye to Zhengyu, Khong, Joel and the rest...

I will move on...
I will be strong...

God, strengthen me before I collapse okay?
I have count on you...and I will be always counting on you.

Boys Like Girls Feat. Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One LIVE

Two Is Better Than One Lyrics

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one


ps: credits to AV, no wonder i find this song so familiar, i have actually listen to the audio version 3 weeks back. haha. thanks lah. the LIVE version still the best.:)

is 2 better than 1? i prefer 1, than 2.

brain drain! how i wish..

After 10am - 9pm (11 hours of laptop usages --> okay, i did pause and rest awhile for lunch, small breaks, dinner)..

Sometimes I wonder what is it like to those bad-bad boy that all the girls will like. not saying they will make their parents worry, they still treat their parents good and filial, just the appearance wise..

like the pic (guy in the drama) below:

1. What will it be like to be surround by girls? (eee, i dun like those type of girls--> Sorry)
2. What will it be like to be popular?
   
3. What will it like to be REal handsome? (Okay lah, i am dreaming..)
4. ... and the list goes on and on..
   

Maybe I am just tired to be a Mama-Boy already, a boy that his parents' friends will praise, a neighbourhood-boy that his neighbours will praise.

I wonder what will be everyone reactions if I really become like that? Will they be shocked? Will anyone cares or bother actually?

Does appearances really matters? whether you are ugly, handsome, fat, thin, skinny, tall, short, muscular... why does everyone cares so much on the appearance?

Where is the innocence and purity that every one of us has since we were born? is it hidden somewhere? or buried somewhere deep that's y everyone appear to be so "outward-appearance-kind-of-ppl"..

what is wrong with the mentality? I guess sometimes images of a person can be very subjective.

Tml is the day of my graduation. soon it will be army.

and Uni.. filled with uncertainty..


Dun worry, I am fine, I guess I just need to rest,thanks for reading my nags.. haha..

Emo...

tired.. sometime, i just need someone to listen to me..
to shoulder my burden,
to answer my worries..

guess, no one can do it right now.. maybe it's becoz my heart has been locked..

time after time...
i have been looking back..
have i really made the wrong decision of studying poly?
instead of JC?

i guess my answer is still a NO.. no poly, no C184, no wanying, no E98, no Euzanne...

it will not be the same me anymore..

i still rmb.. those encouragements to tell me to stay strong..
from Darren.. from Wan Teng, Cheryl, Michelle... and many more

those moments when i am down, who really stood by to share my sorrows..victoria, xiuying, wanying.. zhiyuan...and many more

20 years has passed..
sometimes i just went to cry secretly.. it's like late at night, and when u felt down... u tend to pour out all ur sorrows and cry all out.. it happens to me alot of time recently..

guess i am insecure bah..

it's like suddenly i felt very lonely.. and alone..
the feeling is very difficult to describe...:(

life in TP.. (write-up)

Honestly, if someone asked me what I have gained throughout my 3 years of studying in TP. My answer to them is that, not only have I obtained my diploma, I have also gained valuable friendship along the way.



Participating in activities like the TP Open house 2009 and Orientation Leaders Training Camp (OLTC) 2009, has also widen my social circle and also equipped me with essential knowledge on leadership skills.

Life has not been the same since I have stepped into FBI, from the fun gaming and sing-a-long sessions, to the eating cum movie outings and not to neglect the rushing to meet the project deadlines and the overnight stays at friend’s house to “Chiong for our project” (Give it a best shot). Although, things have not been the same as before, I would not forget the precious moments that I spent with different groups of individuals.

Our class has also participated in meaningful charity work such as the Community service for the Hospice Care and FLAG day for the Down syndrome. I still remember the pathetic CCN day, where the sales of our kacang puteh, has been very low compared to the neighbouring classes. With a few of us, plus our highlight for our booth, Yuan Hong, our magician, we managed to achieve a small profit margin. Thanks to him, we have the director to come over to our booth to watch his magic tricks and the other staff to purchase our food.

However, this journey has not been smooth sailing. With quarrels and misunderstanding, relationship and friendship problems happened around me. It has not been easy for me to complete my curriculum and at the same time counsel and motivates my friends (and even myself) to overcome the circumstances opposing us.

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank our FBI Teaching Team, I know we, this batch of FBI students, have been giving all of you a lot of problems and headaches, but well, at least all of us have made it upon graduation, Thank You so much for your patience and care.

Life in TP is just like a roller coaster ride, filled with ups and downs, thrills and excitement. I will not forget the yummy western food at Design and Mensa 2 Canteens. Lastly, I would like it end here by a quote: Nothing is Impossible.

Chee Meng, C184

hehez.. exactly 400 words..

i hate...

questions questions... there are so much questions i wanted to ask...

ask them and ask myself..

am i plain naive or is it i am too sensitive over the minor issue..

i really hate it..
hate myself for been so timid..
hate myself for been so sensitive
hate myself for not be able to voice out..

THIS IS IT, Man...

a small issue is been manigified by our dear chee meng..
after all it's just a M.. i shall not dwell any further..

thinking of it make my heart sinks..
thinking too much of it makes myself emo...

listening to 楊丞琳's「雨愛」...

shall i blame myself?
this is getting out of hand..
i can't even control myself..

this is really too much for me..
guess i can't really accomodate everyone and make everyone happy bah..

a promise that is half-broken.
a heart that is on the verge of breaking..
a boy that is running around searching for his shelter.. a friend that knows him inside out.. and he also know him inside out..

it's difficult, i know.

ps: someone pls pray for him to get over this silly issue, or else, the trip, i dun he will be able to enjoy much. thanks.