Mistakes and misunderstanding

Mistakes and misunderstanding
well.. in one week.. i make the same mistake and misunderstand another issue again.. well.. i guess i am play ignorant.. haha.. no.. i guess i think too much liao.. sometimes.. i dunno why.. i have been over-sensitive.. sensitive is good.. but when it turns to over-sensitive.. it becomes uncontrollable.. somemore.. i can tense to be abit too emotional over matters..

i guess when all of the these combined together.. i become very emo loh.. haha..

ya.. she is right.. thinking back at what she is trying to implying last thu.. it all fits together in one piece liao.. maybe i am just giving myself false hopes to move on.. which i hate myself for that.. i guess.. i need to change..

"A leopard cannot change its spot"

hopefully, a ah-meng here can change its "furs" to be less sensitive and emotional bah..

wish me luck

:)

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2
Quoted from a good fren of mine, " Just a word of advice, dun trust everyone, even the close ones around you. You still dunno them better enough!"

ytd i was having a talk with him.. discovered alot of non-discovered stuffs.. well i am not mainly/partly involved.. just that i noe some of them in the incident..well..

"really can't judge a book by its cover"

the news in the call came in too shocking and amazing.. how the person (not the one i am talking) did plan so well.. i dunno lah.. i guess he is smart bah.. but

For justice and TRUTH.. i am going all the way out to protect my FRIENDS from him.. he is an unpredictable guy.. so let's hope that God can give him the punishments for his wrongs..

i will do my part.. just wish me all the best and i'll update you all once again

dun worry, i will be fine.. i noe everything has the limit.. well.. i noe my limit to that incident..

:)

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

Publicly! i REALLY REALLY want to apologised for the wrong info carried forward..

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

""2 days back i was worried for her.. she off her hp.. i sent her a 3 sms long msg hope she can get less troubled over a problem that i dunno.. but now.. come to think..(1) it is this problem that she is upset about.. i dunno what's her mood when she write that post lah..(2) angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. it really made me very upset that.. very upset.. i dunno how i can finish my FOI.. one problem after another..(3) i guess i shld stop grping with her.. (4) from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.. (5) i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. ... ...."

i want to settle every details that i wrote once and for all.. i dun want everyone to misunderstand i mean ANYMORE.. and i also dun wish my relationship with her ever fallen back again..

(1) ""it is this problem that she is upset about.."" : what i mean is that i predicted at that point of time that her disappointment is the problem that she is upset about..( but i am wrong!)

(2) ""angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. "" : that time i am very furious and i really felt ashamed of me writing this.. i guess i am juz over angry.. but what i seen and my thoughts and actions have been consumed by the "DIRTY" feelings from the devil.. (pardon me if i say something that is too personal)

(3) ""i guess i shld stop grping with her": i guess i am too harsh in saying that.. the thought just zoom in to my brain and i juz type in down in words.. that IS A FOOLISH THOUGHT!

(4) ""from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.."": that should be the correct phrase.. not "Withstand" her.. i juz can't understand why she is in a bad mood and that point of time.. in COTS lab.. i upset her abit with some silly jokes..our grp of guys went to far then i give up the final blow.. lol.. i shall not say more.. i felt that i should be scolded and slap! maybe i am trying to far off to understand her le bah.. in the way that i go all the way to think too much liao..

(5) "" i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. "": that's the corrected version..


Sometimes when words are laying infront of you in the com screen and you tend to think of the way that you feel about these strings of words and infer them that is not in the CORRECT frequency as the person who is trying to imply to you (viewers).. that's where everything started to goes wrong.. and SPAM!.. the untrue rumours started spreading and spreading..

This is really what i dun WISH to see.. so u can see.. sometimes.. i didn't posted much personal stuffs with details on the blog.. but given that.. from my knowledge.. the ppl who see my blog are all my close frens.. i thus can let go abit of my happenings around lah.. but i guess that particular post is really the worst one i have ever written.. spell errors all over.. that time i am over fumed and over frustrated liao.. dunno y.. it's getting from bad to worse..

i guess i really need someone to teach me how to manage my anger liao.. but dun worry.. this post is a promising one.. why?.. becoz i can feel a peace in my heart!

ps: i have a new name called Charles Law.. quite like it lah.. thanks everyone for their good laugh.. especially wany for her newly creation of name.. although there is a RICH STORY behind it.. very funny.. those who 1 to noe.. ask me personally bah.. sure u laugh untill cannot tahan.. but good lah.. Charles sounds more professional compared to Jimmy.. sounds so childish.. haha.. but no matter what..

as long as i can bring joy to my friends, there will be no limits to where and how i can go to achieve the high and the low for them.. i am not lying.. trust me.. trust OCBC.. nono..

last up.. by demand, i went to see wany's blog.. juz one to give a RANDOM shout-out that..

WANYING! I HAVE LOVE YOU MORE THAN i have loved you last time.. !!
Really really thank God for his plans of this trials.. i guess it will strengthen both of us?.. what did you think?.. haha.. yup.. He did strengthen my faith.. :)

Take care everyone!

Unresolved..

Unresolved.. of a NEW problem..
i think she (another) will see it.. but i dun care.. put inside my heart.. i feel really very suffocating..
"nothing is impossible".. i guess i need to consider trusting this phrase liao..

(can't describe her.. )
(can't tell the incident)

but what i can say is.. which i 1 to tell her is that.. after ytd night.. nth much happen lah.. but when reach this morning.. i dunno why.. that feelings that i have for these few mths like disappear liao.. i dunno.. i somehow do not have that feeling for her liao.. then.. dunno lah.. maybe my heart wasn't right?..

maybe i still need to time to overcome/recover.. i still think my side here is a small matter.. i guess i bother too much bah.. or did i really care for her too much..

sometimes i wonder why i am so selfless.. i give up?... dunno leh.. i guess the time is not right for me to tell her that i like her.. everytime for different crushes.. i will just hide it very VERY well.. she is one of them.. one that i want to hide it as a secret.. i guess no one really will take note of that bah.. but that's good.. at least i have some good memories of us been together.. i dun think she will ever re-read this post.. so let's make this a special one..

i cherish the moments that i and her have together.. as a good fren, a good sister, a good brother, a good... whatever.. all those will be in my heart/mind de..

: Ai .......... : i will give up myself as an admirer of yours from NOW oh.. go to the man that you ALWAYS love.. i zhu fu ni! your guardian angel, always will be here for you de.. dun worry.. i wouldn't posed any feelings on you anymore.. cause this is the relationship that is forbidden for me to do.. NI YAO XIN FU!

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due
last mon, we have our DER lesson and guess what, wany makes her decision to fix her grp liao.
Well, i am happy for her la, at least she gets what she really wants,

i have honourly given the chance of 4 person in grp to her, well.. she did alot for me already.. and i should be grateful to her.. haha..

that moment.. when i give up my chance.. i did noe that God is with me.. how to say leh.. when Jon told me.. "Eh, can 4ppl in a grp leh.. you, me, siyun, sijia lah" .. then siyun and sijia also got give me eye contact.. then i mouth to her.. wy they all 4 ppl liao.. then i told her..(our) 3 will do.. "

one side of mind said.. "ahyo.. cheemng, this is your chance, ever since 3 mths back you have been long to join siyun sijia liao, now is your chance to form grp with them.. what are you waiting for?"

another side of mind is saying.. "Dun listen to it.. trust your heart.. think of Jon.. think of Wy.. ya.. dun raise your hand.. "

so instead in that split second i urge wany to go write her group names first.. coz it's first come first serve basis mah.. i am glad lah.. at least.. i can do something for her.. :)

ON the OTHER side of the story
that day then i noe that's so many ppl reading my blog.. chinsheng, alice, andy, wany, wah.. lots lots that i dun think they will noe the existence of my blog read my blog.. scary ah.. haha..

yup.. so... i guess one good thing is that.. i noe that someone did really cares for me lah.. haha..
bad thing is no more privacy loh.. no lah.. kidding.. at least they care.. and bother..