Mistakes and misunderstanding

Mistakes and misunderstanding
well.. in one week.. i make the same mistake and misunderstand another issue again.. well.. i guess i am play ignorant.. haha.. no.. i guess i think too much liao.. sometimes.. i dunno why.. i have been over-sensitive.. sensitive is good.. but when it turns to over-sensitive.. it becomes uncontrollable.. somemore.. i can tense to be abit too emotional over matters..

i guess when all of the these combined together.. i become very emo loh.. haha..

ya.. she is right.. thinking back at what she is trying to implying last thu.. it all fits together in one piece liao.. maybe i am just giving myself false hopes to move on.. which i hate myself for that.. i guess.. i need to change..

"A leopard cannot change its spot"

hopefully, a ah-meng here can change its "furs" to be less sensitive and emotional bah..

wish me luck

:)

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2

Shocking x2 x2 x2 x2 x2
Quoted from a good fren of mine, " Just a word of advice, dun trust everyone, even the close ones around you. You still dunno them better enough!"

ytd i was having a talk with him.. discovered alot of non-discovered stuffs.. well i am not mainly/partly involved.. just that i noe some of them in the incident..well..

"really can't judge a book by its cover"

the news in the call came in too shocking and amazing.. how the person (not the one i am talking) did plan so well.. i dunno lah.. i guess he is smart bah.. but

For justice and TRUTH.. i am going all the way out to protect my FRIENDS from him.. he is an unpredictable guy.. so let's hope that God can give him the punishments for his wrongs..

i will do my part.. just wish me all the best and i'll update you all once again

dun worry, i will be fine.. i noe everything has the limit.. well.. i noe my limit to that incident..

:)

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

Publicly! i REALLY REALLY want to apologised for the wrong info carried forward..

Extracted for the "shocking" post 1 week before...

""2 days back i was worried for her.. she off her hp.. i sent her a 3 sms long msg hope she can get less troubled over a problem that i dunno.. but now.. come to think..(1) it is this problem that she is upset about.. i dunno what's her mood when she write that post lah..(2) angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. it really made me very upset that.. very upset.. i dunno how i can finish my FOI.. one problem after another..(3) i guess i shld stop grping with her.. (4) from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.. (5) i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. ... ...."

i want to settle every details that i wrote once and for all.. i dun want everyone to misunderstand i mean ANYMORE.. and i also dun wish my relationship with her ever fallen back again..

(1) ""it is this problem that she is upset about.."" : what i mean is that i predicted at that point of time that her disappointment is the problem that she is upset about..( but i am wrong!)

(2) ""angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. "" : that time i am very furious and i really felt ashamed of me writing this.. i guess i am juz over angry.. but what i seen and my thoughts and actions have been consumed by the "DIRTY" feelings from the devil.. (pardon me if i say something that is too personal)

(3) ""i guess i shld stop grping with her": i guess i am too harsh in saying that.. the thought just zoom in to my brain and i juz type in down in words.. that IS A FOOLISH THOUGHT!

(4) ""from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.."": that should be the correct phrase.. not "Withstand" her.. i juz can't understand why she is in a bad mood and that point of time.. in COTS lab.. i upset her abit with some silly jokes..our grp of guys went to far then i give up the final blow.. lol.. i shall not say more.. i felt that i should be scolded and slap! maybe i am trying to far off to understand her le bah.. in the way that i go all the way to think too much liao..

(5) "" i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. "": that's the corrected version..


Sometimes when words are laying infront of you in the com screen and you tend to think of the way that you feel about these strings of words and infer them that is not in the CORRECT frequency as the person who is trying to imply to you (viewers).. that's where everything started to goes wrong.. and SPAM!.. the untrue rumours started spreading and spreading..

This is really what i dun WISH to see.. so u can see.. sometimes.. i didn't posted much personal stuffs with details on the blog.. but given that.. from my knowledge.. the ppl who see my blog are all my close frens.. i thus can let go abit of my happenings around lah.. but i guess that particular post is really the worst one i have ever written.. spell errors all over.. that time i am over fumed and over frustrated liao.. dunno y.. it's getting from bad to worse..

i guess i really need someone to teach me how to manage my anger liao.. but dun worry.. this post is a promising one.. why?.. becoz i can feel a peace in my heart!

ps: i have a new name called Charles Law.. quite like it lah.. thanks everyone for their good laugh.. especially wany for her newly creation of name.. although there is a RICH STORY behind it.. very funny.. those who 1 to noe.. ask me personally bah.. sure u laugh untill cannot tahan.. but good lah.. Charles sounds more professional compared to Jimmy.. sounds so childish.. haha.. but no matter what..

as long as i can bring joy to my friends, there will be no limits to where and how i can go to achieve the high and the low for them.. i am not lying.. trust me.. trust OCBC.. nono..

last up.. by demand, i went to see wany's blog.. juz one to give a RANDOM shout-out that..

WANYING! I HAVE LOVE YOU MORE THAN i have loved you last time.. !!
Really really thank God for his plans of this trials.. i guess it will strengthen both of us?.. what did you think?.. haha.. yup.. He did strengthen my faith.. :)

Take care everyone!

Unresolved..

Unresolved.. of a NEW problem..
i think she (another) will see it.. but i dun care.. put inside my heart.. i feel really very suffocating..
"nothing is impossible".. i guess i need to consider trusting this phrase liao..

(can't describe her.. )
(can't tell the incident)

but what i can say is.. which i 1 to tell her is that.. after ytd night.. nth much happen lah.. but when reach this morning.. i dunno why.. that feelings that i have for these few mths like disappear liao.. i dunno.. i somehow do not have that feeling for her liao.. then.. dunno lah.. maybe my heart wasn't right?..

maybe i still need to time to overcome/recover.. i still think my side here is a small matter.. i guess i bother too much bah.. or did i really care for her too much..

sometimes i wonder why i am so selfless.. i give up?... dunno leh.. i guess the time is not right for me to tell her that i like her.. everytime for different crushes.. i will just hide it very VERY well.. she is one of them.. one that i want to hide it as a secret.. i guess no one really will take note of that bah.. but that's good.. at least i have some good memories of us been together.. i dun think she will ever re-read this post.. so let's make this a special one..

i cherish the moments that i and her have together.. as a good fren, a good sister, a good brother, a good... whatever.. all those will be in my heart/mind de..

: Ai .......... : i will give up myself as an admirer of yours from NOW oh.. go to the man that you ALWAYS love.. i zhu fu ni! your guardian angel, always will be here for you de.. dun worry.. i wouldn't posed any feelings on you anymore.. cause this is the relationship that is forbidden for me to do.. NI YAO XIN FU!

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due

DER grouping--> 1 mth project due
last mon, we have our DER lesson and guess what, wany makes her decision to fix her grp liao.
Well, i am happy for her la, at least she gets what she really wants,

i have honourly given the chance of 4 person in grp to her, well.. she did alot for me already.. and i should be grateful to her.. haha..

that moment.. when i give up my chance.. i did noe that God is with me.. how to say leh.. when Jon told me.. "Eh, can 4ppl in a grp leh.. you, me, siyun, sijia lah" .. then siyun and sijia also got give me eye contact.. then i mouth to her.. wy they all 4 ppl liao.. then i told her..(our) 3 will do.. "

one side of mind said.. "ahyo.. cheemng, this is your chance, ever since 3 mths back you have been long to join siyun sijia liao, now is your chance to form grp with them.. what are you waiting for?"

another side of mind is saying.. "Dun listen to it.. trust your heart.. think of Jon.. think of Wy.. ya.. dun raise your hand.. "

so instead in that split second i urge wany to go write her group names first.. coz it's first come first serve basis mah.. i am glad lah.. at least.. i can do something for her.. :)

ON the OTHER side of the story
that day then i noe that's so many ppl reading my blog.. chinsheng, alice, andy, wany, wah.. lots lots that i dun think they will noe the existence of my blog read my blog.. scary ah.. haha..

yup.. so... i guess one good thing is that.. i noe that someone did really cares for me lah.. haha..
bad thing is no more privacy loh.. no lah.. kidding.. at least they care.. and bother..

End

End of my misery, start of happiness?
In the end, it's all a misunderstanding.. i guess i gotto laugh at my over-senitiveness lah.. after plucking my courage to call her at the same night, she didn't mean what she is trying to implying in her blog.. then she is not sad (upset) about me.. juz disappointed and shock that i going to leave the project grping only..

i guess is i guess too much liao lah.. then for Jon.. i finally settled my thoughts liao.. yup.. i can't leave with him.. that's the idea.. thinking from the first day of school till now.. he has been with me.. beside me.. he really taught me alot.. scold me for my foolishness.. and alot alot more that still hidden in my heart.. really.. i appreciate everything that he does for me.. thank you!

finally finish my Global Citizenship and CASH processing modules already.. i am really happy, overjoyed, overwhelm with enjoyment today.. let me tell you why..
7am- 8am: i took the empty bus 27.. i thought i miss the empty one.. but.. i didn't.. 5mins after i reach the bus stop.. the bus came.. really a good start..
8am-9am: first time i have even so concentrate in my DER lecture (slp for 4hrs only).. i still be able to concentrate to every single word that ms lina said.. wah.. really real amazing.. that's when i noe today is a special day liao..
9am-9.30am: Reuters lab printing FOI.. the start of yuanh suaning me.. haha.. today.. i didn't feel any bad or any sadness of the suan.. infact.. i like been suan... i love been suan.. i guess there must be something wrong with me liao.. maybe not enuf slp bah.. then i jump here jump there de..

9.30am- 10.30am: me, costllan, yuanh, wany, sijia,siyun went to tampines mall de Mac eat BREAKFAST.. wah.. that's one of the highlight of the day... FOOD@.@.. i really miss my BIG BREAKFAST.. and now i am able to ate that..wow.. i love every single bite of the scramble egg.. sausage slice, the bread, the jam.. the hashbrown and the milo.. i scald my tongue becoz of the hotness.. /\./\

you can see how hyper i am when i sit down there eating and cracking VERY SILLY COLD jokes at the same time... i guess there must be something wrong with me liao

10.30am-12.00pm: after breakfast, we went up to play ARACADE.. wah.. tell you what... that's the 6th or 7th i have really play aracade.. and i really SPEND on playing the games loh.. i spent $4 on the card.. then play drum with wany.. .very fun.. it's about rhythm.. then you got to beat the drums at the right beat and rhythm.. then we were laughing like hell when the chinese new year song is been played.. we selected it lah.. then when we strike the drum.. the CNY song came in.. we laughed untill stomach pain.. i still rmb the pandas there inside the machine demoing kungfu moves..

then we end up, play the stepping of bees game.. that game is played by me costllan and wany.. we need to step on any of the dots that is shine red.. then we were busy stepping and using all our strengthen on that... we split the dots and i need to step three of the dots.. haha.. then very fun lah.. we got a perfect score of 100% accuracy.. three ppl leh..!.. and 20 rewards points.. woohoo.. IN MY CARD!.. coz i paid for the game mah.. :))

then we go play daetona..wah.. it's so good drifting successfully in the road.. this car racing game.. although i didn't win.. but i have improved.. woohoo.. i drifted my car untill very nice.. lesser banging on to the wall.. so impressed at myself.. !

then i played the basketball shooting game.. with wany.. gotten a score of less than 100.. .but got the techniques to aim low and shoot low.. haha.. :) after that.. yuanh planning to get one toy from the machine for wany.. then he tried.. but the hanger is too loose.. then the toy that he wanted all dropped down back to the base.. after 4 attempts.. he gotten 10 sweets loh.. erm.. what i can say is that the machine is unfair de bah.. haha..

1200-1230: we went shopping around the basement and found alot of great food.. smell so nice.. but i am not hungry.. that's y i didn't eat.. some of them tabao chicken sticks.. haha.. the smell is heavenly good lo..but thank God.. i resist myself from the food temptation!!

1230-1245: we took bus 293 and reach uncle's A1 bubble tea.. from sem starts onwards.. i have not been there since then loh.. really miss uncle wide smile and his lame jokes.. without disappointment.. today he told us somemore.. what F1 joke lah.. u noe the juice machine right?.. got the sound right?.. he said is the F1 engine.. then the cover of the machine is the door of the F1 car door.. i was like.. oh no!.. since when did uncle become so lame..

i told siyun.. i really scare.. 30 years later.. i will become like that leh.. given my lameness now.. oh no... better pray i will not be as lame or lamer than him.. lolz..

1245-0100: went back for BIS lesson..

0105: 0345: BIS lesson..ms rita woo is a good tutor though.. she taught very detail.. then for tutorial.. she get us to share our answers in grps.. which is a good idea lah.. everyone listens and copied not like last time ms cheng lesson.. moreover.. ms woo is more strict in the lab usages.. like no drinks and foods means no drinks and foods.. then she still monitor every of our com to see whether we are really doing our lab or not.. abit scary hor!.. but good lah.. i found out how crystal reports works mostly on my own.. very proud of myself.. haha..

0405- 0550: FOI lesson.. ms eelin is playing mood swings again.. i dunno what happen to her lah.. when we come in to the tutorial room.. she already very tired liao.. then still say some nonsense that we dunno la.. whole class blur blur de.. then teaching that time.. wierd wierd de.. but i have lots of fun lah.. good lah.. i love calculations.. this tutorial focus some on calculations.. but today's figures abit too much.. 2 foolscaps full of figures.. i see untill i blur liao.. still need to copy figure by figure.. :(..

0600-0625: Flavours slacking time with GC clique.. i was suaning lz for her sillyness and etcs.. so bad hor?.. i guess that is becoz i finally suan dao someone liao.. i am so happy.. sometimes i dunno why.. my mind today juz very alert.. i can immediately twist the words around and make a laugh out of it.. haha.. very funny.. i myself also shocked at myself liao.. haha..

0630-0729: GC mock test.. the MCQ was abit tricky.. but the whole paper is manageable lah.. i cancelled alot of answers and rewrite some more relevant de.. haha.. hope it works.. i spend almost 1 hour doing that where the lecture is only left with 6ppl.. i got out of the lecture since i have completed the checking of my work.. 1 min before the paper ends.. haha..

0750-0850: after the test, the whole GC clique, jon, me, costllan, shuxian, lz, joyce, guocheng, weizhi, gabreil, wany and yuanh went to subway at CPF building there for a dinner.. wah..11 ppl leh. how to find seats?.. really really amazingly.. when we reach the exit/entrance of subway.. and we really so lucky that we found seats from ppl who juz ate finish.. a whole grp like us also..haha.. i ordered the cheapest sandwich.. veggie de.. it's $3.90.. then with a set meal.. the sandwich is really really very nice.. coz it's toast with cheese then the fresh lettuces.. OH!.. i really want to eat again.. this time around with xiuy.. coz jon and i owe her liao.. haha..one more thing. .the cookies that came late.. wah.. it's so yummy and soft.. the textures.. wah... my saliva all drops liao..haha..

0900-1000: after the meal, we went separate ways.. jon and i took bus 72 home.. haha.. we talked and laughed all the way.. didn't slp as usual.. haha.. guess 2 of us really can have alot of things to say de bah.. almost everyday go home together yet still have so much things to say and LAUGH.. haha..

today i laughed the most de loh.. in this particular month, i laughed the most for today.. haha.. i thank everyone for caring about me.. knowing that i meet some problems.. you all will come to spread your love to me.. i am really grateful for that.. i appreciated that the most.. thanks..
thank claudia, xiuying, fathinah, costllan and those who read my blog but didn't commented.. thanks.. i noe you all will be there for me.. i need that.. and i already have that..

i will continue to move on de.. i won't give up.. cause i know that i will win no matter what.. i will overcome every situations and setbacks and circumstances.. i am who i am.. i am law chee meng. Jim :)

Shocking

Shocking
Sometimes i wonder why i muz go around pleasing ppl.. making ppl happy.. or whatsoever.. ya.. i am angered by someone.. believers.. non-believers.. i mean we muz really find the one who we can really works well with for our projects mah..

HER words in her blog really hurt me lah.. i dunno lah.. 2 days back i was like caring for her.. asking her what i can help her mah.. do she need a chat or what.. and this is how she face and react to this situation..

i mean..

i run out of words.. juz now Jon asked me go her blog see.. said what she was disappointed with me or whatsoever.. i told him where got.. this afternn she is alright ah.. she even give me a smile and told me she respect every decision that i made and what...

2 days back i was worried for her.. she off her hp.. i sent her a 3 sms long msg hope she can get less troubled over a problem that i dunno.. but now.. come to think.. it is this problem that she is upset about..

i dunno what's her mood when she write that post lah.. angry? or what?.. i dunno.. what i noe that i can sense "piss-ful-ness" in that post.. it really made me very upset that.. very upset.. i dunno how i can finish my FOI.. one problem after another.. i guess i shld stop grping with her..

from COTS till now.. i still can't get over why she is always not in a good mood.. i dunno lah.. what she really wants.. i guess i shld call her someday.. dun wish to let this resentment continue to..

but i am really shocked at that post lah.. maybe she said reflect at what she wrote bah..

i think what i can do now is to... follow what andy preached today.. follow the steps.. first up.. apologised to her.. i guess that's what i shld do now bah.. i noe that's difficult.. but i will try..

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 2

London-Paris Study Trip (Jun 7 to Jun 13) Part 2
Some of the texts are extracted from my trip report.. haha.. spend some time reading my trip details bah.. dun worry.. there are pictures uploaded..

"Let us flip through the book of memories and flashed back the past encounters and experiences of my stay in London and Paris. Below are some of my more memorable incidents and events of occurrences.

London (Day 1-4)
Our Tour Guide: Mr Gram!.. Who is Ms Kilogram?.. that's our first response.. but we didn't ask him lah.. lolz..:)

Our coach passed by this TESCO supermarket is like our NTUC in Singapore

The hotel that we live in.. Ashlee Hotel.. very cosy.. love their service and attitude of serving. hehez.. will go back to there to stay if i ever visit London again.. it's juz 5mins walk to their MRT (tube) --> Paddington Station!


One random Red building (bottom left)


london eye *(top right corner) and other siteseeing..

The Tube station and complex network

Paris (Day 5-6)
Effiel Tower in mid afternoon.. look carefully.. u saw a Indian/African carrying alot of stuffs at the right of the pics right?.. actually.. he is one of the buskers that goes round the compound to ask tourists and everyone.. to sell away his sourvenirs.. keychains.. watches.. lots lots lots.. and he is not that only one.. tha'ts more than 20 selling the same one.. they will keep pester you around to buy their stuffs.. that's y i keep avoiding them.. haha..

and it's not legal for them to sell in this way.. but it's not illegal to buy from them.. but overall.. we, tourists earned sometimes and they earned their profits though.. one thing i 1 to mention is that.. at our last day of trip.. a policeman came.. and every of this ppl run away.. escaping.. they didn't even care about the roads and the cars. .juz dashed across.. scared been caught by the policeman.. and that hide and seek plays on..

An unforgettable encounter
After the photo-shooting session with the Eiffel Tower in the afternoon on our first day of Paris, Jonathan, Guo Cheng and I decided to go buy some drinks since we were very thirsty. When it is about our turn to be served, the shop helper didn’t serve us, instead they serve others that are beside us. In the end, we underestimated the prices of coke to mineral water since all the names on the signboard are written in French, even the prices. hai paid for the same price drinking the "gold" made COKE EURO $2.50... means $5 per can.. FAINT!

Thomson Reuters
Straight away after we landed Paris through Eurostar.. we proceed to Thomson Reuters by our coach.. the speaker for one of the presentation is called Adrian -- i RMB his AH AH AH.. always!! From the way he speaks, we can know that he does not practice English often and when you heard him communicate French to his colleagues, he seems so comfortable and relax. During the presentation, he tried to speak in proper English but maybe due to lack of thoughts of what to show to us, he often runs speechlessly with the “ah~ah~ah” non-stop. I can see from his expression, he is trying to pronounce the English properly but really his accent was too heavy for us to catch what he is trying to imply. I guess I can understand him better since I have brother-in-law who also has a strong accent. I caught what he is trying to say faster than my other friends:)

Paris Metrolopis (MRT) and transport system and ticket entrance

Bank of England Museum
Punctuality does counts, and a lot in London. On the following day after lunch, due to the peak lunch hour, we were late at for our second itinerary of the day, the Bank of England Museum. If it was not that some of us want to go for a second helping, and the rest of us waiting for them laterally to finish their second meal and rushing them too, I do not think we will be late. To sum it up, we were late, by almost 20minutes.

In Singapore, this lateness can be tolerated, but in London, it’s an outright NO. Ms Lina’s scolding was really like a wake up call to most of us, telling us that, “In London, the people here are very punctual, you know what, the management here (Museum) has the rights to shut the door since we are late. Do you know that?”

I perfectly understand how she feels, we, as a traveling group, representing Temasek Polytechnic, if most of the students there were late. How will the people in London thought of us as Singaporeans Youths? Normal people will surely thinks that Singaporeans must be always late for meeting like this. This lateness did not just impact the whole flow of museum site seeing, but it has adversely and impacted the way people will think of us as a Singaporean. "


Paris Cruise around Central of Paris (night siteseeing)
That night was my happiest night.. i am so touched by what i see.. all those buildings and i teared becoz i finally let out of all the worries and sorrows out liao.. the wind was blowing on me.. seeing Paris wonderful scenery.. i sometimes wonder.. why i should i worried about all those.. isn't such simple thing like viewing a siteseeing better than anything?.. then i realise.. everything can be view in a very easy manner.. it's juz how you face it only.. !

when the cruise go through this underbridge.. some of the passengers including me will shout on top to the bridge.. it's like exhalting all your troubled out.. and no one cares at that point of the moments cause it's echos.. so u juz shout.. and you can get that sense of freedom there.. i really cherish the moments.. shouting with jonathan.. and.. have fun with the ladies.. haha.. wanying de "Cheng-ge" joke really funny.. at that point of time.. everyone was in very high spirit although all of us was very cold and tired.. coz long day mah.. but.. we survived though..

2ND OF Paris!... DISNEYLAND PARK!!.. woohoo.. i so so ENJOY it.. it's amazingly FUN.. i 1st time try out the ROLLAR COASTER... it's so SO.. shiok.. that's really my BREAKTHOUGH.. that sense of achievement is better than presentation that time.. i really tears after i survive for the ride.. love it!!

Evening shot with Effiel Tower.. one of my fren commented that i was laying on top of the tower sleeping.. lol..
Last dinner.. Golden fries.. marinated chicken cubes and yellow rice with LOTSLOTS of salad and dessert is APPLE PIE..!!


Sunrise arond 6.50am near Malaysia-SG sky shot on the plane thanks to Shuxian for her these 2 photos..!

Sometimes..

Sometimes..
..i wonder.. why i am placed in my friends' lives.. i have this feeling now that.. they only find me when they need me.. what if?..

what if.. when i need them?.. will they be there for me?..

on and off, i am been troubled over all my friends' problems.. from costllan, jonathan, yuanhong, and now wanying and xiuying..

maybe i am juz too busybody.. or over sensitive or over caring?

i guess i shouldn't be too over caring about that..

everything should have its own limit right?..

i guess my limit is up.. how about yours?

My breakthough

OH my GOODNESS <(@.@)> ytd is really my breakthough of the day, i completed 2 presentations in a single day, 12pm and 8.15pm de.. so shiok..

my first presentation was at 12pm at Business Objects lab, ms lina surprisely didn't ask me alot of qns when i am presenting.. she asked those i have predicted but didn't prepared de.. lol.. shld have prepared them earlier.. i really can't find that period that she's wanting.. so ... :"(

after that, i felt a sense of relieved and achievement, thank yuanhong for his answering to help our whole team, wanying for her hardwork and kaizhou for her participation and ever been there for me when i need her help.. :)

my second presentation was at 8.15pm at lecture threate 12, presenting on Global Citizenship on the advantages and disadvantages of studying in UnitedKingdom and Singapore.. i stumbbled over the words lah.. but not that nervous liao.. maybe i am use to presenting already... u can see my hand gestures and way of speaking liao.. not that tense liao.. i guess when ur facts are right.. that's not point fearing what the ppl will be asking you about..

for both presentations.. i have overcome my fear of stage fright.. not that shivering and nervous.. just can't pronounce the words clearly... juz give me more time and i am sure by this end of sem.. i can give a proper presentation.. with more confidence! :)